Empire State of Mind

Her and Her Uncontrollably Ugly Thoughts

2011-11-10T08:02:00.001-08:00

Why don't you just fly and leave this ugly duck behind?

She'd understand.

P.S. Don't mind her. She still loves him, after all.

You Know Your Relationship is Going to an End...

2011-10-27T17:06:00.000-07:00

When you have time to talk, but you don't even bother to say a word
When you have chance to kiss, but you choose to sit still and stare to another direction
When you cross the street and he holds your hand, but it doesn't make you feel safe
When he no longer able to come for you in your greatest need and choose to practice softball instead
When you cry in silence besides him, but he doesn't even realize your quite sobs
When you enter his car and he doesn't welcome you anymore
When you have 24hours a day for him, but he couldn't even spare a single hour to have lunch together with you
When you desperately yearning for his hug, but he doesn't even stop for a second to look into your eyes to figure that out
When you start stating the word 'break' and 'break up' in your random conversations
When you can't seem to stop crying every night thinking of him, whilst the one you're thinking is enjoying the night with his friends
When you simply miss him but you can't spit it out in front of him cause you're just too mad
When you're hand in hand in a mall, but it doesn't feel right
When it's just the two of you in the car and it feels awkward cause none of you talk
When you stop being his source of happiness, and so does he
When you stop being the cure for his stresses, and so does he
When you finally doubt whether he's still madly in love with you, or no longer is

When you start writing this post, cause you just want him to know how you truly feel, but you're afraid of his following reactions...

I'm afraid.

Not As Easy As A Sunday Morning

2011-10-08T18:04:00.001-07:00

I'm currently working on 3 big projects which I myself doubt I can make it. Dude Up There, please let the Force be with me.

Us

2011-09-28T09:11:00.000-07:00

S: "Why is it so hard to tell me what's on your head?"

Pictures With Brief Captions

2011-09-24T19:14:00.000-07:00

Wayangs troop at Mirota Batik, Yogyakarta.

Bangles and bangles and bangles and I wanted to buy it all!

The very pretty eyes of my brother.

Look at the glasses! Love!

And this glasses too. Didn't I look pretty much like John Lennon? LOL

Mom-Brother-Dad took a walk along Malioboro Street.

The Governor Office. We look awesome, no?

So, as you see, yes, those pictures were all taken in Yogyakarta. The girl is back to her second hometown. Yay. It's almost a month tho. And things are going extremely crazy here. Sigh.

How's life been treating you, readers?

The Post You Write When You Missed Too Much Things

2011-08-28T07:31:00.000-07:00

I've been missing Yogyakarta so badly. I hate being stuck in this boring old town for months. No decent bookstores, no appropriate malls, no delicate cafes, et al. Well I loved meeting my family, I loved meeting my old peeps, visiting my schools, but that's all. I actually like the peaceful feeling I got whenever I'm home (not to say I am highly devoted to it); it keeps me sane, keeps my feet stay on the ground.... But then again, it's been too long. Pretty much too long. I love to be sane, but to be insane makes me feel more alive. I missed the feeling of being hurried by deadlines, I've really got used to the term deadline now that it's disappearing for some moments out of my head, I feel weird. Life's been too safe.

And the thing about Yogya is, there's always something surprising in every corner of it. The unique cafes, the cheap-but-oh-damn-delicious foods on angkringan, the cool beaches, the huge-and-all-25-percents-off bookstores, et cetera. Yogyakarta is simply fascinating. That kind of town which people would yearn for.

Ah. These are some pictures I captured in one of my favorite cafe in town, Nanamia Pizzeria.

I looooove the paintings they put on the wall!

My Guess wallet, a gift from S - My BusyBee (by Golly it can't stop buzzing!) - And the cool National Geography camera bag (which is officially S' but I took it anyway :p)

My favorite oreo-blended milkshake, and the blurred menu, too bad

And here's the one behind the whole I-miss-Yogyakarta-rants ;)

ANYWAAAY, good thing is, I'm going back to the town this Friday! Yay! Fasting month is almost over and college will be started soon... Euh I'm actually not sure whether I really want to leave this peaceful, comforting home, and back to the whole living-alone-and-suffer things or not. Oh, look at this indecisive bitch! You can't even decide what you want, can you? Pffft.

Okay shall we change the subject then?

What book(s) do you currently read? Me, Bloomsbury Edition of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (I can never get bored re-reading this!), Stephen Hawking's The Grand Design , Ika Natassa's Antologi Rasa, and (still) The Reader. The one I mentioned latter was, to quote Eliysha, gross. G-r-o-s-s. I stopped reading it on the first part. (To know why, start reading it yourself)

Antologi Rasa - Ika Natassa

Light and deep on the same time. Very amusing. Finished this on one night ;)

Rowling's great mind series finale in two version - Indonesian and British

So by the way, it's 2AM now on my timezone, and I am, surprisingly, sleepy. (yay?) One thing left I've got to say: I missed my Grizzly Bear already... He's been leaving to Solo and we're separated by miles away till college started. Jeez, don't blame me for seemingly acting like a dependent spoiled brat, I used to see him everyday. ;(

Have fun in Solo, love

Okay, that is it. I've been blabbering too much, no? I wish I haven't bored you to death.

all pictures were taken by Canon EOS 450D

One Inspiring Story of Forever Greatest CEO

2011-08-26T09:42:00.000-07:00

A true story by Vic Gundotra:

One Sunday morning, January 6th, 2008 I was attending religious services when my cell phone vibrated. As discreetly as possible, I checked the phone and noticed that my phone said "Caller ID unknown". I choose to ignore. After services, as I was walking to my car with my family, I checked my cell phone messages. The message left was from Steve Jobs. "Vic, can you call me at home? I have something urgent to discuss." it said.

Before I even reached my car, I called Steve Jobs back. I was responsible for all mobile applications at Google, and in that role, had regular dealings with Steve. It was one of the perks of the job. "Hey Steve - this is Vic", I said. "I'm sorry I didn't answer your call earlier. I was in religious services, and the caller ID said unknown, so I didn't pick up."

Steve laughed. He said, "Vic, unless the Caller ID said 'GOD', you should never pick up during services."

I laughed nervously. After all, while it was customary for Steve to call during the week upset about something, it was unusual for him to call me on Sunday and ask me to call his home. I wondered what was so important? "So Vic, we have an urgent issue, one that I need addressed right away. I've already assigned someone from my team to help you, and I hope you can fix this tomorrow," said Steve.

"I've been looking at the Google logo on the iPhone and I'm not happy with the icon. The second O in Google doesn't have the right yellow gradient. It's just wrong and I'm going to have Greg fix it tomorrow. Is that okay with you?"

Of course this was okay with me. A few minutes later on that Sunday I received an email from Steve with the subject "Icon Ambulance". The email directed me to work with Greg Christie to fix the icon.

Since I was 11 years old and fell in love with an Apple II, I have dozens of stories to tell about Apple products. They have been a part of my life for decades. Even when I worked for 15 years for Bill Gates at Microsoft, I had a huge admiration for Steve and what Apple had produced.

But in the end, when I think about leadership, passion and attention to detail, I think back to the call I received from Steve Jobs on a Sunday morning in January. It was a lesson I'll never forget. CEOs should care about details. Even shades of yellow. On a Sunday.

To one of the greatest leaders I've ever met, my prayers and hopes are with you, Steve.

I Need To Be Dragged Out of This Random and Boring Holiday

2011-08-21T16:50:00.000-07:00

When I commit to myself that I'd post at least one post each day to this dearly e-diary, I thought that's gonna be hard for I nearly have no cool stuff to tell at all. I don't hang out very often, and even if I do it's only involving malls or boyfriends or one to five closest friends which is surely not an interesting stuff to write. But this, too, not gonna be very much interesting, I presume.

Anyway, I guess one of the most apparent reason of why I don't really enjoy my holiday is because I am somehow not very getting along with people. Even a somewhat-brain-and-personality-test stated that I am basically an introvert. It's kinda funny how people sometimes see me the other way around, though.

So, my holiday's still moving onward anyway, and it unconsciously bores me to death. You know, I practically love weekends, but I never happened to love long holidays. The unvarying, dull activities, constantly repeated everyday, gah! I never liked routines. Especially when it comes to boring exertions.

Well I admit at first I thought holiday's gonna be heavenly fun for it will require no shitty assignments, no need to set the clock to ring very early on the next day, no pressures of marks or lectures, no stresses for excess expense at the end of the month, and other sort of heavenly stuff as mentioned. Well it was fun though at first. I played with my brother lots of time, helped my mom cook (and it was kind of miracle how I can finally cook on my own!), hanged around with some friends, spent a zillion hour to watch movies and read books, had my boyfriend drop by to date at home... It was perfection! But when it came to repeat again and again within these 2 months that the repetition itself has even came to uncountable number, hell sure I got bored!

I thought if I could get some freelance jobs here but then as I searched I can't find any interesting offer to apply. Well what can I say? This city I lived in is so not-cool that I can't even find a more proper word to define the not-cool-ness of it!

Oh have I complained too much? Do any of you yearn for holiday, instead? If only we can exchange, dude, I would really love to.

Enjoy your day.

A Post You Better Just Ignore

2011-08-20T16:12:00.001-07:00

At a certain point of your life, have you ever feel very low, very dishonor, very shameful that you just want to disappear? A point where you feel like all you have done in life is nothing more than bullshits, aimless and nonsensical. That certain point, where you feel like all you desire to see is yourself being killed, for your life has no means either to you or to everyone else evolving around you. That one of the worst point in life where all you want to do is go away and see if anyone would look over you, for you believe none would do. This point of life where you feel like everyone is being mean, dishonest and disappointing, that all you wish to happen is them getting away of your life. Have you?

Dude, I know it sounds so drama-queen. I know you never even believe such point exist, and you never even crave to know if it does. You think you'll never get to that point as you come to have eons of good people surrounding you, and life's been treating you very well.

Of how I come to know it is because I happen to see it that way. Neither did I think this point exist for a non-dramaqueen people like I am.

But it comes anyway.

And none would care.

Failure

2011-08-18T16:20:00.001-07:00

Failure
[feyl-yer]
-n. Nonperformance of something due, required, or expected

As said, failure is (only) nonexistent of something you required, or expected, or wished, or wanted. It does mean you are lack of success, it does true that you fell to the bottom when you failed, it does signify that you don't deserve the thing you actually required. But then again, why should see that way? This is all the matter of your perspective, of how you see things.

Failure does not precisely refer to the word "unsuccessful". Not even in the dictionary. It is more like a condition where you are granted with abundant chances to try and do better. It is when you can value yourself and do self-improvement. And self-improvement is sure a crucial thing to embrace if you want to continue life in mirth. Failure, in any way, would inevitably exist for every step you take. And no matter how accustomed you are to it, you would still fall down when you failed; something unseen smashed you up and collided you to pieces. But pieces could assemble and strike back; thus there is still a huge chance to win the fight. Failure, does it indicate that you don't deserve the thing you think you did? What if, contrarily, you actually deserved something better? It may sound cliché and so not logical, but what if it is true? It's just you didn't look closer.

Failure, I guess, is only one of the uncountable blessings God bestows upon me, His way to wake me up from daydreams, to slap me in the face and see how would I react: encounter, or stay still to ask Him why He did that. It is His very simple way to evaluate whether I would still be faithful beneath the trials. He wants to see whether I could bravely learn from my mistakes, or hide in my tears instead.

It is His very humble way, to show me that He does care, He does look after me, and He does love me more than I think He will. I don't know, I just knew all that.

7 Months

2011-08-18T09:39:00.001-07:00

"Masih akan ada 8 bulan, 9 bulan, 1 tahun, 7 tahun... Dan masih akan ada selamanya."

-S

66th

2011-08-17T07:02:00.000-07:00

If you were a man, you must have had at least two grandchildren. Man, you're old!

picture source

Happy birthday, Indonesia! You may be old, You may be having the shittiest government ever. But this land I step on everyday, this land from where I eat, and drink, and learn all things eversince I breathed, is Your land. And this blood running in my veins, is Your blood.

I love You, Indonesia. I do and I always will. No matter what.

I Dream A Dream #1

2011-08-16T16:30:00.001-07:00

1o years from now.

It was a sunny morning in July. I woke up from sleep with my husband beside me. It's him. The one I always dream to be with. Ah... He's turning 30 today. I already planned a surprise.

With my slippers on, I got up very quietly and took the presents and the cake I already prepared. I walked downstairs in my favorite PJ, and woke my son up. Malino was only 4 and he's handsome. A pretty combination of me and my husband. With that bold eyebrows of his Dad, high cheek-bone of his grandma, long eyelids oh his mom, and the cutest one was sure his curly little hair just like his Dad.

Well, Malino is a smart boy, he's not that kind of straight-A student in class, but he's smart. I already told him that his Daddy was going to have the 3-O birthday today, and he woke up in time. He yawned and asked if I already took his presents. I said I haven't, I didn't even remember if he told me to, thus he grumbled: "Mom, I've told you that last night when you tucked me in. Please, you're only 28 and you forgot nearly everything!" Jeez, this son.

Well anyway, his presents were a hand-made birthday card and a little box which I didn't know what's inside. We're getting ready, I lighted the candle, he brought the presents. We went upstairs and stepped in hush trying not to make any sound. Malino opened the door handle very slowly, and thanks God he's still sleeping like a baby. But Mal suddenly ran into him, by Golly that was out of our plan! He yelled loudly and shook his Dad, "Daddy! Daddy! Wake up! It's your 3-O birthday!" My husband woke up with his one-line-eyes fluttering trying to adjust the light. He smiled as he saw me bringing his favorite cheesecake tart. He then stared at our little kid who grinned widely whilst saying, "Happy birthday, Dad!" The next thing I knew was Mal screaming, "Dad I can't breathe!" as my husband hugged him so tight. I laughed.

It was one of the warmest morning in our marriage. ;)

Metamorphed

2011-08-11T21:56:00.000-07:00

Whoa it's been almost a month since I last posted a blogpost! I'm such a lazy-ass during this holiday. Sleep and eat and shop and go for some treatments at the salon, and sleep and eat again, and more sleep and eat. By Golly, did I mention sleep and eat thrice? I know right, I should've did some exercise. I hope typing some words at my laptop could burn some excess calories.

You know, as I have nothing to do during these holy-days, I spent most of my time home to read and do online-shops. I am currently so much in love with wedges! If you used to know me beforetime, then you must have known that I was a diehard fan of sneakers, not wedges. But as I am no longer a chick, and I will even turn out to be a sophomore this year, I am kindaaa paying more attention to my look these days. I bought some pairs of wedges, some dresses (I used to always wear jeans before), some cute-patterned leggings, and etc. It feels like I am being metamorphed.

Anyways, for my favorite wedges online-shop, it's iwearUP, a brand that was formerly made by @dianarikasari. They got suuuuper cuteeeeee wedges! These are my favorite pairs:

Polly Floral Blue and Jane Batik-Mustard

I know they're so cute right! But too bad I've bought some pairs of wedges as I go shopping spree with mom as well, so these cute little pieces have to wait. :'(

By the way,

Throughout my times in Yogyakarta, I nearly have time to read books. I mean, real books. You know, I'm not a kind of straight A student so I pretty much avoid reading college textbooks. LOL. I've been seriously busy back in Yogyakarta, most of the time I had I used to attend lectures, do myriad of assignments, do my duty on some organizations I joined, and such. Even I rarely have a full day free on weekends. And at the night, it's quite impossible for me not to precisely sleep right after I touched the bed. So it's so hard for me to find times to read. I read sometimes, but none of the books I read were finished. Sad, I know.

Now as it is holiday timeeeee, I have bunch of free time to use to do everything I want to do! Yaaaayy! I extend my sleep time, I eat like a pig, I went to salon couple of time, I shopped much, and most of all, I read plenty of good books here! I bought a lot of comics, some light-story novels, some heavy-story novels as well, and I even re-read some Harry Potter series! That's awesomeee!

Anyways, this is what I currently read:

Bernhard Schlink - The Reader

It has been filmed anyway. But I haven't watched the movie so this is sure a good read to fill my oh-so-random holiday.

So, what do you do on your holiday time, loves? Tell me! ;)

Holy-day

2011-07-13T21:51:00.001-07:00

Hello hola amigos! Notice something new? Yep, the blog header it is! Thanks for the very awesome tutorial, Cassey! Ah brief update of her, anyway, she got a scholarship in the Academy of Art University, San Fransisco, last month! It's like, by Golly, no one would ever imagined that! I knew that she once studied in the same university as me, got failed once, moved to another art university on the same town, and by months I haven't checked her blog... ta-da! She's in SF already! Bloody hell, Cass, you rock! Now go pursue your dream and go back here once you become a great film maker, okay! xoxo

Anyway, it's holiday already for some students in Indonesia, including me, of course. That's the only reason why I could blab around in here. But still kinda busy thou, managing this and that, and yada yada yada. Doesn't feel totally like a holiday but well yeah I am home, after all. I feel like posting some photos and elaborating some this-and-that but this is 12 pm at my place and it is clearly a time to take a nap.

Later in this month, I promise. Uh, well, I hope.

Bye for now. *yawn*

Love Is (Always) In the Air

2011-06-09T06:04:00.000-07:00

It's been 5 months and I can't think of anything better than having him.

Je suis amoroux de toi, love.

This post is dedicated to Sasongko Wahyu Kumoro,
yang sempet protes karena gue belum pernah nulis tentang dia disini.
Well gimana gue mau nulis kalo setiap waktu luang yang gue punya selalu gue habisin sama kamu, hon. ;)

Position Paper

2011-03-18T04:34:00.000-07:00

Yellow! What's up, everyone?
Back with me after like... 2 months with no post? Miss me? No? Hahahaha
Well, akhir-akhir ini kesibukan gue semakin parah. Gue bahkan ga tau apa yg harus gue prioritaskan. Mulai dari reportase, MUN, group leading APPS, senat, etc etc etc. Tapi gue lagi passionate banget sm yg namanya MUN. It's Model United Nations, a simulation of united nations council. Try google it! Hehehe. It's so fun, anyway. In that, we learn to debate in decent way, smoothly strike, negotiate clearly, and learn how to make a draft resolution of your own. And here, we're talking about the international issues which is (for me) clearly not a simple and easy thing to do. Mostly we talk about politic and humanitarian issue, anyway. Dan kemarin ini, kita baru aja membahas soal Middle East conflict, referring to Libya crisis. Dan gue dapet tugas buat bikin Position Paper. Position paper is... Well, sebuah tulisan yang harus lo bikin pertama kali sebelum megikuti MUN. It's kinda showing the stance of country you represent, how your country stand at an issue, what your country have done, and what your country want to do toward it.
Aaaaand what I wanna show you here is my veeeery first pospap, of course! Go check it out, darlings! :-D

--oOo--

Committee: European Union
Country: Italy
Topic: Middle-East Conflict
Delegate : Putri Erdisa Januarti

BACKGROUNDS
It is indisputable that some of the Middle East countries are having an aggressive reformation—whether it arose from a specific state which then led to a domino effect, or indeed the particular countries in the Middle East have just perceived a shortcoming in their governance system. The cases in these Middle East countries are not a recent issue, though; the Middle East is nearly always alive with tribulations in both political and military system. But lately the world is paying the attention to a crisis in the domain of politics and governance which is specifically regarding to the forceful protests and massive demonstrations against the head of state who has commanded for extended period. Libya is one of the states that are now enduring the aforementioned problem yet haven’t achieved any completion. Today, it has became a huge issue of humanitarian ever since thousands of civilians there are being killed, violated, desecrated, and no longer given the freedom for speech. It is the principles of humanity upon which the United Nations was founded, demand that we do a better job of protecting them and solve the problem immediately.

CAUSES
Conflict occurs in Middle-East countries has always been the same throughout the months: demand of reformation. It was initially started by Egypt, as its civilians fought their President, Mubarak, the 30 years autocratic ruler, to step down. The initiation itself has however brought the spirit of the other country to do the similar thing—to overthrow their ruler from dictating the state.
The basic excuses of why they want to do that are vary: (1) They got no satisfaction of the ascendancy (2) They have portrayed that there’s something wrong with their governance system—regarding to the extended period of the president’s supremacy (3) The civilians of Libya desired to obtain reformations in their governance system. Meanwhile, reason of why it turned out into a magnitude crisis is another story. It is begun by the disavowal their president gave toward the demand of the resignation, which subsequently brought the country to an ultimate crisis as the civilians itself refused to surrender. And thus the internal war was begun and bloodshed was arisen. For the sake of humanity, it is an obligation of the United Nations as an international community to do something major to protect the civilians and strive vigorously to bring down the dictator itself; to stop the violation, the massive murder, and the humiliation of the people.

POLICIES
For Italy, there is no excuse of any kind of humiliation. What is happening there in Libya, can no longer be called as a common issue. It is heartbreaking and is a misery for us to see how abundance masses of Libyan are being killed, bombed, and dishonored, as if there is no such thing like humanity.
Italy realizes the location of Libya is moderately far from our state; hence the crisis itself will not bring so many causes toward us by geographic aspect. But nonetheless, Italy also realizes that we have conducted several substantive corporations between the two countries. Italy receives more Libyan exports than any other country (approximately 38 percent of Libyan exports are to Italy). With Libya in turmoil and Ghadafi clinging to power, no country has more at stake than Italy, which finds itself in its most complicated diplomatic position in decades, pulled between its commitment to NATO and human rights and its scramble to protect its investments in a country that is now suffering a huge crisis. (Wordpress.com)
Furthermore, Italy also has some citizens living in Libya either to work in the oil companies or merely to carry on the livelihood. By February 25, it is informed that more than 1,000 Italians have been airlifted and shipped back from Libya over the last two days and Italy hoped to bring back a further 200 on the same day. Italy has received 6,300 North African migrants from Libya as well. (Examiner.com)
Besides, The President of United States Barrack Obama and the Italy’s Prime Minister Silvio Berlusconi, also has agreed on the need for a coordinated multilateral response to ensure adequate humanitarian assistance and basic human rights. Our Foreign Minister Franco Frattini has also stated that the country has established an agreement on a proposal for "targeted sanctions" to deter Ghadafi from shedding more blood; he said that he would ask the United Nations in Geneva to set up an independent international inspection mission under UN auspices to monitor the situation on the ground in Libya. (LifeinItaly.com)

PROPOSED SOLUTION
1. Ghadafi should resign from his position. We recommend the Security Council of United Nations to do military intervention to take Ghadafi down.
2. The transition problem of the head of States will happen afterward if Ghadafi have been overthrown; we recommend the Security Council to intervene on Libya governance system and build a new government, thus they will immediately be able to conduct a fully demonstrated election for the next president.
3. We urge the next government of Libya to have more structured, comprehensible, and transparent law, concerning the authority of the head of State. Amendment of the law is vastly needed.
4. Dealing with the refugees and the injured masses due to the armed conflict, we respectfully ask UNHCR (United Nations High Commissioner for Refugees) and OCHA (Office for the Coordination of Humanitarian Affairs) to assemble and enhance the effort to protect them and prevent the situation not to be jeopardizing yet again.
5. To prevent the other Middle East countries from having the domino effect and become insisted to do the same thing—clash for reformation, we recommend Security Council to build a specific law related to the period of the authority that could bind all nation, hence the countries which still occupy the lifetime authority on its law will not fall into this kind of situation.
6. We encourage UNESCO (United Nations Educational, Scientific, and Cultural Organization) to create a forum that specify on political education aspect: FSPE (Forum of Substantive Political Education); which perhaps could be conducted annually. The material inside is the education of political issue, mediation of how diplomatic way is still the most necessary solution, and any kind of political education that could advance the way people think of their governmental issue. The participant could be some representatives from the countries all over the world.

Well that is it. Thank you for reading this post. ;-)
Have a good day!

17!

2011-01-24T19:24:00.000-08:00

The princess is having her sweet 17 today!

But turning adult?

Not necessarily yes.

She's still as infant as she could be. ;)

But well, hello license and national ID card!

So glad to have you finally on my wallet! ;p

photo: weheartit.com

IP

2011-01-20T19:55:00.002-08:00

Indeks Prestasi? Kenapa dinamakan begitu? Memangnya benar pencapaian seorang mahasiswa dapat direpresentasikan dalam bentuk angka di kolom IP? Lantas apakah jika IP saya 4,00 berarti saya telah mencapai sebauh pencapaian prestasi yang paling tinggi? Atau sebaliknya, jika IP saya hanya satu koma sekian, apakah berarti saya tergolong mahasiswa tidak berprestasi? Memangnya apa sih definisi spesifik dari Indeks Prestasi itu?

IP saya sejauh ini tidak tinggi, teman-teman. Dari 6 sks yang sudah keluar nilainya, IP sementara saya hanya 3.33 sementara teman-teman seperjuangan saya yang lain kebanyakan mendapat nilai 4.00. Haha, padahal masih ada 13 sks lagi yang belum keluar nilainya dan saya tidak tahu akan menjadi berapa IP kumulatif saya nanti. Lantas, kalau akumulasi IP saya nanti hanya dua koma (atau bahkan satu koma), apakah itu berarti saya bukan mahasiswa berprestasi?

Saya mengikuti lima organisasi di samping kuliah itu sendiri; saya aktif di Badan Eksekutif Mahasiswa UGM dan saya sedang menjalani masa magang menjadi reporter di sebuah organisasi pers universitas. Saya diterima dalam sebuah komunitas berbasis hukum (Model United Nations -- anyone knows?) dan menyisihkan ratusan partisipan lainnya. Saya menjadi senat terpilih di fakultas saya, satu-satunya perwakilan dari kelas. Dan saya juga terpilih menjadi panitia acara annual mahasiswa farmasi se-Asia Pasifik bertitel Asia Pacific Pharmaceutical Symposium sebagai Group Leader dan menyisihkan belasan pendaftar lain. Tapi diatas semua itu, IP saya rendah. Lalu apakah saya tergolong mahasiswa tidak berprestasi?

Dosen saya pernah berkata, "IP itu seharusnya ada di prioritas ke-18. Ke-1 dipegang oleh kemampuan kalian dalam berkomunikasi. Kalau IP kalian 4, paling-paling nanti jadi dosen. Mau jadi dosen? Belajar terus kerjaannya tidak ada gebrakan yang menarik." Lalu beliau tertawa dan saya seketika langsung berharap beliau adalah ayah kandung saya bukannya sekedar dosen sebuah mata kuliah. Beliau satu-satunya "orang tua" yang tidak berpikiran sempit bahwa "nilai" bukanlah segalanya. That GPA is not the only aspect that represents my value. :)

Back then, saya menginap bersama teman-teman dekat saya: Mentari, Prisnu, dan Dudu. Topik tentang IP pun lalu menguap. Galau kita dibuatnya. Lalu Mentari mencoba menyemangati kita dengan bilang: "Bill Gates pernah bilang: 'Dulu saya seringkali gagal dalam ujian dan teman-teman saya berhasil. Sekarang teman-teman saya pun sukses dan berhasil menjadi karyawan dari sebuah perusahaan ternama. Perusahaan ternama itu milik saya.'"

Isn't it simply touching and very much encouraging?

Mentari juga nambahin: "Ayahku dosen di Kedokteran, dia bilang, mahasiswa-mahasiswanya yang IP-nya tinggi, justru malah nggak bisa praktik, sedangkan yang IP-nya biasa-biasa saja malah sukses jadi dokter yang 'bisa' nyembuhin pasien."

Tapi di sisi lain, tidakkah kita memang hidup di negeri yang menjunjung tinggi arti sebuah 'nilai'? Tidakkah memang sebagian besar penduduk negeri ini berpikiran kelewat sempit bahwa nilai (dalam arti sebenarnya) adalah tolak ukur paling signifikan akan pencapaian seseorang? Kalau mau mendaftar beasiswa, tentu IP jadi alat pembanding juga kan? Kalau mau mendaftar kerja, IPK pasti harus turut dilampirkan, bukan?

Tapi kenyataannya, apakah iya orang-orang yang IP-nya cumlaude (>3.50) itu bakal terjamin sukses hidupnya? Well, mungkin memang besar kemungkinannya bahwa mereka akan menjadi best employee on best companies, but would they be able to own the company -- to be another Bill Gates? That's the question. Lantas, perihal beasiswa, apa mereka pasti lolos? Kalau ada tes, dapatkah mereka mengaplikasikan ilmu mereka dalam bidang kehidupan dengan baik? Apakah mereka yang ber-IP sempurna memiliki cukup pengalaman hidup yang berarti?

Ah well.... What's so important with being smart, anyway? I'd rather be wit. Karena IP bukan satu-satunya tolak ukur, after all. :-)

P.S. Maaf kalau di beberapa line saya terdengar sombong. This post is made to be a rearview mirror of myself so I would know that taking this GPA thing too seriously would only stress me out yet get me nowhere. CHEER UP, dear Me!

Aimless Post

2010-12-29T08:01:00.000-08:00

Hello. This is me again. Tryin to twist a word or two. Right now, it's only me and digital note books, my lousy grammar, and emotions; I feel like bursting. I don’t have any idea but I know that I need to write. Or I am going to burst. Well, keep on reading. For the next numerous words, sentences or even paragraphs you will read, are just short updates.

Everyday is inconsistent, a contradiction and far from agreement. In what particular way, do not ask. Well are you sure you want to keep on reading? These are just short updates. 10:10pm and it’s so quite down here. It’s only me and the voice inside my head telling me what to write. Well, nothing. Much. I don’t know. Ah. 10:13pm now. Feels like 2am already. 1 minute feels like forever. Writing this diminutive, fastidious arrangement of words unquestionably doesn’t make me feel less of a bad writer. Having envy feelings for those who write without flaw or without intermissions. Hey, am I a bad writer, like, really, what do you think?

11:10pm. Sorry the writing was postponed. It was my brother and his mom coming visiting me. Goddamn I can’t stop smiling! It’s only hours ago when Ibu asked: “Putri kapan main ke Bandung? Lagi liburan kan?” Taunya Ibu malah telpon: “Putri, blok A3 teh dimana? Kok ga ada yang nomor 11 ya?” HAHAHAHHAHA anjir ibu nakal banget! Terus tau-tau udah muncul depan kosan aja. Dicium pipi kanan-kiri-dahi and she said: “Ibu kangen Putriiii!” Ya Allah padahal bukan Ibu sendiri tapi sayangnya bukan main. :’)

And then Ochan showed me his wrist and tadaaaaa…. He wore the watch! Haha glad it fit on you, brotha!

And guess what? Ibu brought me a cake I loveeeeeee the most from Jalan Merdeka! Ya ampuuun I’m flattered she still remembered my favorite cake! Thousand kisses for you, Ibu! And warmest hugs for yous, brother and lil brother! ({})

DAMN I STILL CAN’T STOP SMILING!

P.S. See how moody I am. There. ;p

500 Days of Summer

2010-12-28T15:11:00.000-08:00

"Hey Tom, look. I know you think that she was the one. But I don't. Now I think you just remembering the good stuff. Next time you look back, uh... I really think you should look again." - Rachel Hansen

I've just watched 500 Days of Summer. And... My very first opinion about that movie would be: Summer Finn sucks. But she resembled me a lot. hehe. First, she had a strong belief that relationship (or in this case, commitment) is so not necessary needed since it would only hurt people's feelings and it doesn't make sense to build a commitment if it's only supposed to hurt. And she also added that she didn't want to be anybody's anything. Literally.

Well, that makes sense. And that is what I actually believed too for so many years back. The only reason why I make "relationships" with some boys is because... Well, I wanted to do that. I have told you in the latest post that I am a very impulsive person, right?

Second, the boy in that movie, Tom Hansen, is also stupid. Why? Because he fell way way way too fast on Summer! Why did he trust her that much? Why did he think that Summer is the only fish in the sea? Why did he get hurt when Summer finally ended it up? Summer had told you at first that she didn't want a serious relationship, jerk! Oh my God, what's with these men? Hasn't they grew up already?! Why do they take these relationship thingy soooo seriously? Oh man, I tell you, we're all young, we're all living in the world to seek for happiness, not the other way around. Get it? What I wanna say is, relationship sucks and messy and rude and it is not supposed to make people happy. Well, okay, it will trigger butterflies in your stomach and makes you feel like being in heaven, AT FIRST. But let's see what happen next when it comes to 300 days of your relationship. Will it still feel the same? It's not.

Ah anyways, this is just my two cents, don't take it seriously, kayss? And pardon me if I'm being offensive or something. And... I wrote this one with BB again so pardon me again if I get some typos or grammatical error or etc.

Smell you later, lovely readers! xoxo

A Process Of Growing Up, I Should Say

2010-12-28T14:49:00.000-08:00

Hi. This is gonna be my first post written via BB. Something suddenly plops into my mind and urge me to write it out.

Well, you know my life has been quite hectic these days. Not to say, chaotic. I had a lot of activities beside the college itself (let's count: BEM-KM, PSM, Bulaksumur Pos, APPS, Senate, KoMUN ― 7). It's overwhelming, really, no need to argue and claiming me as a sok-sibuk person. I'm not trying to seem like I am, anyway.

Well I bought a time table board last month and I found it's hard ― I repeat, HARD ― to leave a box of date in blank since I got NO DAYS without NO activity consisted in it. And some of them also took the same time so it forced me to choose which one is prior and which one is not. I have been so careless about daily agenda eversince I born; my very favorite quote is: "Go with the flow. Do things that please you best, and you will find the way." I never planned something before doing it. I am a real impulsive. If I wanted to do something then I do it; if I wanted to accomplish something then I strive. Well I am a great event organizer, I should admit. But those things were just out of plan.
I never made a new year resolution for the whole time of my life. I never listed any goals and glued it on my wall or something. I am just not that kind of person, trust me.

But then college starts and everything was changing. I lived alone and it's somehow frustrating to manage everything alone without mommy's assistance. I through bunch of problems dealing with times. I forgot many meetings to come. I forgot 1-2 interviews due to the committees open recruitment. I forgot college tasks. I forgot to do that and this. I forgot nearly everything. Then I realized that it's me who got the problem. Not the too-many-activities or too-many-tasks-and-silly-lectures to blame. It's me myself. I'm being very careless upon my own life and there I stumbled on my own feet. I realized it's time for me to change my stupid belief that life doesn't need plan. It does need, in fact.

My first attempt was buying the time-table board and fill my daily agenda on every box. Then I hang it on the wall in front of my bed so every morning I woke up from sleep, I could see what was my agenda that day. I updated it as fast as I can if I get a new update of activities and/or a fixation of particular activities. So I will never forget. And well, it helps. Not to mention, a lot! And as what I've never understood before, making agenda of your daily activities is fun! It makes you organized; since you will get reminded every morning when you woke up so you will never forget about what you are going to do the whole day.

And by the way, I feel kind of more mature by doing that. I love growing up. I don't want to be infantile all over again. I am an undergraduate freshman already, for god's sake!

Well, that's all I want to share. Wish me luck for these college-things! Xoxo

P.S. Merry Christmas to those who celebrate! I'm so excited that this is the 3rd christmas for my Princess Diary! You may be old, Di, but you're still fabulous as ever! Agree, readers? ;)
P.P.S. Happy birthday Muhammad Fauzan Triandi! I miss you real bad! Hope you're gonna like the present! Be fine over there! *hugs*

College Stuff

2010-12-04T22:33:00.000-08:00

Ada yang nyuru gue bikin post tentang materi kuliah. Boleh juga. Mumpung lagi bosen jadi gue share aja ya sekarang sama kalian semua. Gue dapet 19 SKS dan 11 mata kuliah di semester 1 ini. Oh ya, untuk yg belum tau, gue jurusan Farmasi di Universitas Gadjah Mada. hehe

Dan ke-11 mata kuliah itu adalah...
1. Farmasetika Dasar I
Jadi disini gue belajar tentang bahasa latin yang sering dipake dalam pembuatan resep. Oh trust me bahasa latin itu sama sekali nggak gampang! Setiap kata aja punya LIMA deklinasi yang pemakaiannya beda tergantung kata itu diposisikan sebagai apa (objek, subjek, dsb). Dan setiap kata juga punya jenis kelamin sendiri. Terus juga belajar tentang macam-macam sediaan obat (serbuk, tablet, kapsul, injeksi, suppositoria, dsb) -- cara pembuatan masing-masing sediaan sampai spesifikasi masing-masing sediaan. Dan di semester 2 nanti gue bakalan dapet praktikumnya which is bikin obat itu sendiri with my own hands. haha I bet it's gonna be fun. oh ya fyi, gue ga tau kenapa tapi gue selalu ngantuk lho kalo kuliah ini. Uhm.. I blame the lecturer. She is old and boring. :(

2. Kimia Farmasi Dasar I
Kalo ini kebanyakan materinya sama kayak di SMA. Well namanya juga dasar. Tapi dia lebih spesifik lagi di bagian hibridasi atom, yang sumpah ternyata susah banget! Apalagi di kuliah ini kita dibiasakan untuk membayangkan sebuah susunan molekul dalam bentuk 3D nya bukan lagi dalam bentuk 2D nya. Susah. BANGET. HAHA. And believe me praktikumnya ga semudah yang lo bayangkan men. haha (tersinggung karena waktu gue pasang jadwal praktikum jadi display picture BBM ada yang komen: "Itu bukannya materi SMA semua ya?" Sialan banget gue merasa diremehkan nih hahaha)

3. Parasitologi
We learn helminths and protozoas here. Yes helminth. Cacing. All detail about every helminth living in the world. Dari yang ukurannya dalam mikrometer sampe yang bermeter-meter, dari yang paling cute (bentuknya kayak owl) sampai yang paling menjijikkan kayak benang kusut. Oh ya tapi ini belajarnya tentang cacing yang infektif aja sih. Kalo macam cacing tanah gitu ga dibahas karena ga infektif. Oh ya ada tuh dosen yang kalo nerangin pake powerpoint, masang foto-foto ekstrim manusia yang terinfeksi cacing. Sumpah jijik banget! Ada yang rektumnya keluar dari anus gara-gara cacing apa gitu gue lupa, sampe ada yang muntahin cacing dari hidungnya gara-gara infeksi parah. Ew... Imagine that!

4. Anatomi dan Fisiologi Manusia
Kebanyakan dosen yang ngajar materi ini dari kedokteran. Gue ga terlalu suka. Entah kenapa tapi para dosen itu kayaknya menganggap diri mereka eksklusif. Penjelasannya tingkat dewa and I barely catch it, haha. Kemaren aja waktu UTS gue blank sama sekali di matkul ini. Dasarnya gue bego kali ya. Ga kebayang kalo masuk Kedokteran. -_______-"

5. Farmasi Fisik I
Ahhhh sumpah ini susah! Gabungan dari farmasi dan fisika! Sumpah gue benci matkul iniiiiiiii! Ga usah dijelasin deh pokoknya gue berantakan BANGET disini! Mana dosennya nyebelin lagi! LENGKAP!

6. Kimia Organik I
Here it is. Matkul paling dewa sepanjang sejarah. Haha lebay. Jadi kimia organik ini menekankan pembelajaran pada molekul-molekul yang mengandung atom C (carbon). Which is banyaaaak sekaaaaliiiiiiii dari yg mulai paling simple seperti metana sampe senyawa naujubilah kayak aromatik, lemak, dsb yang sumpah unbelievable sekali betapa ada molekul serumit itu di bumi ini. Dan btw, kita belajarnya pake 3D lho. I mean, kalo lo ngegambarin molekul CH4 (metana), berarti gambarnya harus C sbg atom pusat di tengah-tengah, dan keempat H diletakkan sedimikian rupa dengan sudut masing-masing 109.5 derajat sampe akhirnya itu berwujud limas segitiga yang sudutnya sama. Got it? Oh well forget it gue juga ga ngerti kok hahahahaha

7. Biologi Sel
Bukannya susah sih. Sebenernya simple. Belajar struktur sel secara detaiiiiiiiil banget dari mulai sitoplasma sampe bagian terdalam mitokondria. Semua materinya dari SMA, cuma ditelisik lebih dalam sampe ke masalah yang sangat polemik dan menentang Tuhan seperti: "Apakah keberadaan sentriol itu penting?" Jelas sentriol itu organ yang menghasilkan spindle dan berperan utama dalam pembelahan sel. Tapi itu emang polemik banget karena ternyata ditemukan bahwa sel yang sentriol-nya dibuang pun masih bisa melakukan pembelahan sel. Itu ada di Campbell di bagian sitoskeleton. Well, apa yang paling bikin nyebelin dari mata kuliah ini, adalah, dosennya. Dosen pengampu I, Pak Djoko, itu prinsip kuliahnya adalah diskusi. Jadi dia ngasih kita problem, ehm contohnya ya yang masih gue inget itu: "Membran plasma itu berasal darimana?" Hahaha konyol kan pertanyaannya?! Jelas aja dari Tuhan lah, Pak! Tapi seriously he got the answer lho! Bullshit banget. I never get the point of learning it all. Sedangkan dosen pengampu II, meskipun ga diskusi, tapi kuliahnya itu pake bahasa yang tinggiiiiiiiiiii banget. Gue sampe ga ngerti dia ngomong bahasa apa. Mana ini kuliahnya sore lagi. Udahlah tidur aja itu mah di kelas. HAHA sesat ya gue

8. Matematika dan Fisika Dasar
Ini bisa dibilang matkul yang paling "santai". Dosennya asik, materinya fully materi SMA. Jadi gue masih bisa handle dalam proses perkuliahan. Tapi tetep aja pas udah ketemu soal-soal UTS..... JRENG! Kenapa pas contoh soal gampang-gampang lah pas UTS malah kayak soal olimpiade?!!! HAHAHAHA dendam banget lah itu sama dosennya. Mana soalnya cuma 15 dan checkpoint lagi. Gimana mau dapet A coba. Salah 3 aja udah dibawah 75! Sheez.

9. Praktikum Kimia Farmasi Dasar
Praktikumnya ini sinting. Bukan masalah proses praktikumnya. Well, proses praktikumnya juga sih. Jadi kita tuh melakukan praktikum dalam rentang waktu 4 jam. Oke itu masih bisa diterima since the replication itself is about 2 or 3 times. Maksudnya replikasi itu pengulangan. Jadi satu percobaan kita ulang sampe 3 kali biar dapet data yang mendekati akurasi. Tapi oh men itu capek banget gue bersumpah! Belum lagi laporannya... Laporannya itu at least 20 lembar dan TULIS TANGAN! Di kertas F4 yang marginnya sempiiiiiiit sekali. Itu kalo udah ngerjain laporan rasanya pengen nangis lah meratapi nasib kenapa dulu milih farmasi. Anyway, bisa ngabisin 2 pulpen lho sekali bikin laporan. HAHAHA kemaren laporan terbaru gue sampe 31 halaman tuh! Dahsyat kan? Ayo sini masuk Farmasi UGM! Haha

10. Praktikum Farmasi Fisik
Hampir sama kayak praktikum KFD tapi bedanya ini lebih rumit dalam proses praktikumnya. Ga ada materi SMA. Beneran materi baru. Alat-alatnya juga nyeremin banget. Ada tuh alat namanya kuvet, kecil banget cuma sekitar 4 cm, bentuknya kayak tabung reaksi tapi dia kotak ga bulet. Dan itu harganya berapa coba tebak? 1.5 juta! JREEEEENG! Hahaha. What is so special about that damn tiny thing is that UV light can passed the glass layer. Lapisan kacanya khusus banget. Ga boleh dipegang asal. Terus ada alat namanya spektrofotometer, itu fungsinya buat ngebaca asorbansi, harganya at least 100juta. HAHA. Nyebelin banget yaaa kebayang deh kalo gue ngancurin itu alat-alat pasti langsung miskin seketika. Ah but the good news is laporannya digarap bertiga sama kelompok. Jadi lebih ringan. :D

11. Praktikum Anatomi dan Fisiologi Manusia
Kalo ini praktikumnya di Kedokteran. Materinya ecek-ecek sih, cuma kayak ngecek tekanan darah, cold pressure test, cek Hb, golongan darah, tes urin, dsb dsb dsb. Meskipun judulnya somehow sound very simple, tapi serius deh pas praktikum ga semudah itu lho. Haha apa lagi kalo ini durasinya cuma 2 jam. Belum lagi pre-test dan post-test yang nyita hampir 1 jam. Oh iya pre-test post-test! Jadi di setiap praktikum tuh ada pre-test dan post-test yang menentukan nilai akhir juga. Kalo Farmasi Fisik malah ribet lagi harus bikin resume percobaan dulu yang mesti dikumpulin sebelum praktikum. Dan pre-test nya lisan + tulisan. Nyebelin banget lah itu. Asiknya praktikum anfisman ini ga harus ngerjain laporan! hehe lumayan ngurangin beban seminggu :)

Well that's all. Maaf ya bahasanya acak-acakan. Ini gue in the middle of making a paper. HAHA. Hebat kan gue sempet bikin post segala. Eh btw comment ya sepi nih comment box gue! Hehe desperate banget ya

Well this is Putri over and out!

Life Currently...

2010-11-18T19:28:00.000-08:00

Hey. Halo. Apakabar? Gue ga baik. Makanya ini mau curhat. Hehe. Tapi entahlah, semenjak ada Twitter, gue jadi ga pandai merangkai kata-kata. Apalagi dalam bahasa Inggris. Tapi biar deh apa adanya aja ya. Daripada gue malu gara-gara grammar acak-acakan ntar. Haha. Lagi butuh banget tempat buat cerita nih. Btw, ini lagi di Perpus Kota Jogja. Tempatnya asik buat wifi-an. Tapi sayang batere laptop gue sudah hampir empty so I gotta make it fast.

Well, how's life?

1. Pathetic, I should say. Merapi terus-terusan aktif dan Jogja, meskipun title-nya "sudah aman", tapi tetep aja debu bertebaran dimana-mana. Bikin sesek dan Jogja jadi ga semenyenangkan dulu. Gue pingin kuliah di Bandung. Kemarin waktu ke ITB sama Ochan, gue nangis di depan gedung Sekolah Farmasi-nya. Haha bego ya? Gue nyesel waktu itu ga nyoba tes ITB. Nyesel banget.

2. My love flick is even more than pathetic. Gue baru dicampakkan sama seseorang yang berada nun jauh disana di GMT+7. Well, agak berat buat ngomongin ini but I really have to, kalo nggak nanti gue meledak. Tapi gue juga bingung mau mulai darimana. Haha labil abis. Well, uhm, jadi intinya, dia bilang dia ga sayang lagi sama gue. Begitu. Dan dia juga nyuruh gue cari pengganti dia. Dia ngelarang gue buat nunggu dia balik dari Amrik sana. Dia... Dia lebih suka untuk melepas gue daripada bikin gue nunggu. Intinya gitu. Ah terserah. Pusing. Yang jelas gue patah hati. Titik.

3. Dan btw, gue juga ga terorganisir banget akhir-akhir ini. Gue terus-terusan lupa sama agenda gue sendiri. Ga dateng rapat BEM, ga ikut ini-itu, semua gara-gara lupa. Laporan praktikum dan tugas-tugas kuliah yang bejibun pun ga bisa gue handle. Bahkan tadi pagi gue terlambat dateng praktikum Anatomi, jadi ga boleh ikut pre-tes. Padahal 50% nilai diambil dari pre-tes. Parah kan? Ga tau deh. Gue merasa ini bukan diri gue yang sebenarnya. Hhh.. Kemana ya Putri yang rajin? Yang bisa nge-handle semua urusannya independently? Kemana ya? Balikin dong, yang merasa ngambil.

Hey. Post ini omong-kosong banget ya kayaknya? Gue juga ga ga tau kok gue ngomong apa daritadi. Gue cuma butuh satu media untuk cerita dan kayaknya twitter ga bisa nampung semua ini. So here goes I blog. Tapi ini serius a total bullshit banget! Hahaha nanti gue hapus deh kalo udah ga labil.

Eh! Gue ada kuliah lagi habis ini. Tuh kan hampir lupa. Nanti gue nulis-nulis lagi yang lebih meaning deh. Adios!

For Those Who Have Missed Me

2010-09-15T04:44:00.000-07:00

I can't seem to write anything properly. But these are things you might wanna know:
1. My feet still touch the ground. Yeah, just in case some of you considered I died already or something, I'm still alive. (hooray?)
2. If I have to fill a form and I need to put an address, I will eventually write "Pogung Baru Blok A3 No. 11, YOGYAKARTA." And it feels weird.
3. My boy has just moved to America. For 10 months or so. No explanation for this.
4. My dorm is no cool. The girls are nothing more than I expected. But they're lovely sometimes. <3
5. I slept in almost all of my lectures. Don't blame me! The lecturers are all old and boring! Good news is, I never get caught. :--p
6. And the assignments are killing me in a way.
7. Also the weather.
8. Well, I love Yogyakarta. But there's no place like home. Literally.
9. Thus I wish mom moves here so I don't have to live alone.
10. Because I suck at washing.
11. And I even more suck at managing money.
12. Kay, more good news: my seniors are handsome. :3
13. And.... I got plenty of gorgeous friends who will help me unconditionally! That's the highlight! Yay!
14. Well that's all to say. Ah! One more thing. I've missed you too. :--D

Over and out!

Peristiwa Pagi Tadi

2010-08-07T04:36:00.000-07:00

Pagi tadi seorang sopir oplet bercerita kepada pesuruh kantor
tentang lelaki yang terlanggar motor waktu menyeberang.

Siang tadi pesuruh kantor bercerita kepada tukang warung
tentang sahabatmu yang terlanggar motor waktu menyeberang, membentur aspal,
Ialu beramai-ramai diangkat ke tepi jalan.

Sore tadi tukang warung bercerita kepadamu
tentang aku yang terlanggar motor waktu menyeberang, membentur aspal,
lalu diangkat beramai-ramai ke tepi jalan dan menunggu setengah jam
sebelum dijemput ambulans dan meninggal sesampai di rumah sakit.

Malam ini kau ingin sekali bercerita padaku tentang peristiwa itu.

- Sapardi Djoko Damono
kepada GM

I Should Admit This' Just Another Piece Of Crap

2010-08-06T07:12:00.000-07:00

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So here I am again, wakeful. I have been thinking about something lately, which is the reason why I am wide-awake every night.

Before, I was sitting in front of my laptop, my fingers rested on every letter. I wanted to write. I wanted to create just one brilliant story. But I couldn’t. I didn’t make any sense. My head was filled. What filled my head I did not know. The fear of writing again was the interruption. Once I hold a pen in my right hand and blankly stare at blank pages, I become intimidated. I am afraid that when I start writing I would discover that I do not have anything to write. Again, I did not make sense. It is funny to see that I write under circumstances like these. When I am not forced or where I am not surrounded by eventful activities or in this case, when I have nothing to write at all.

But in fact, I keep on writing and writing, shaping one word after one word, figuring what story I would come up with at the end. Nothing. Yet.

It’s actually not that I don’t have anything to write. Instead, it's actually because I have become excess with enormous quantity of words which now conquering my peanut-sized brain so I couldn’t write anything properly in this sheet at this very moment. But I guess I will force my brain to work pretty harder so I could write anything I should write down here.

Oh man. I don’t even know if my grammar is practically correct or not.

Have I triggered a pain inside your head?

Well, here. I have two major things bothering my mind quite a lot these days. First, it’s about my departure to Yogyakarta in only 4 days ahead. Why does it bother me? Because, first, the circumstance will force me to live alone in there, in my dormitory. While me, ever since I born, never actually living alone without my parents by my side. And leaving my parents that way is kind of making me frustrated. Moreover the Ramadhan month is coming even closer! I can’t cook! I can’t wake up early in the middle of the night to eat sahur! I can’t control my life the way my mom used to control it to me! I would just mess it up and my Ramadhan month would be pretty sucks. I don’t have any idea how to manage myself during the coming up living-alone life.

Okay. I have elaborated it quite structured, haven’t I? At least I've made you catch up my point, no? Err... Whatever.

Second thing, it’s about my idiot love flick! I got two major stories of all. First off, something about my “best crush” which I lately reveal pretty much obvious in Tumblr. But soooo sorry I wouldn’t share you guys the url up here. It’s way too private. Second off, something about my “best brother” which I had written in Tumblr pretty much clear—and long—as well. So, I won’t spend more time talking about the two of it in here.

See? This is nonsense. Then why in the world you start to write, Put? I do not know.

Ah… These eyes have got blurred. My head aches but I don’t feel sleepy at all. I guess I will be wide-awake for the rest of the night... But the post is quite long enough so I will just post it on and…. Poof. I’m gone.

Honey, I've told you. This is just another piece of crap and I didn't make any sense. Why did you start reading?

The Clothes You Wear

2010-08-04T00:22:00.000-07:00

source

What others see from your style

You probably live in your own little world and studiously avoid having to search for your own identity. You may feel that you are not loved, and being in your imaginary world is your way of coping with this. You get moody easily.

What your nightclothes reveal

You are friendly and always in good mood. You are candid and helpful, and can be sexy at times too.

What others see from your ties

You enjoy being alone. You like to life the simple but good life, and you cherish your freedom. You are thoughtful, confident and uninterested in glamour.

What others see from your belts

If there's not a single belt in your wardrobe, you like freedom and are opposed to all kinds of rules. You are creative and very good at work that requires you to stretch your imagination. Your main downfall, however, is that you can be very moody.

What others see from your shoes

You are a person who loves simplicity and is sincere and open. You are pleasant to be with, easygoing and always in a good mood. You neither want to control nor be under someone else's control. You don't care much about how you look, and know that it's what's inside someone's heart that's important.

What others see from your earrings

You are probably an independent and strong-willed person. Fairness is important to you, and you always stand up for what you believe in. You are friendly and get along well with people.

The last analysis

You are probably a clever and adventurous person. You love to learn new things, and enjoy socializing with friends. Although you enjoy your freedom, you cherish peacefulness and like to spend time alone with your thoughts.

--oOo--

An analysis from here. Which I myself got it from Istina's Alaska? This Way! (thank you for sharing, Dwi!)
Well, not exactly accurate after all, but some of the points are just undeniably true! You only required to answer some questions about the clothes you usually wear, and... voila! The analysis is ready to served.

By the way, I don't have any more interesting story to write, so... this is Putri over and out!

Dear Accelers...

2010-07-29T21:21:00.000-07:00

This heart always aches whenever I heard the words of goodbye.

Each and everyone of us is leaving
and it hurts since I would be the last one to leave.
Oh dear,
You know I'm nothing without you.
And yes, I've missed you.

Oh Man.

2010-07-29T06:22:00.000-07:00

Creativity is evaporating out of me,

or maybe, I've never had any.

Copycatting this.
picture source

Mommy Said I Was Freak

2010-07-16T21:13:00.000-07:00

and I pretty much agree with her.

Too Sad To Even Think of A Title

2010-07-15T23:23:00.000-07:00

Hermione : How does it feel, Harry? When you see Dean with Ginny?
Harry : [slightly taken aback] Oh. Um...
Hermione : I know. I've seen the way you look at her. You're my best friend.
[Ron bursts in with Lavender, laughing, then sobers when he sees Hermione and Harry]
Lavender : Oops!... I think this room's taken.
[runs off]
Ron : [awkwardly] ... What's with the birds?
Hermione : [Stands, glares at Ron] Oppugno!
[Hermione's flock of birds fly at Ron, who flees the room. Hermione sinks next to Harry and breaks down crying]
Harry : It feels like this.

- Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

Does it hurt too, Harry? Because for me, yes it does hurt.

Is sad,

Photoscape Rocks!

2010-07-15T19:09:00.000-07:00

Before

After

--oOo--

Well, I don't usually edit photos, but take a look on this! How can I not love editing? HAHAHA (Y)

Norak Baru Tau PhotoScape,

Graduation Day (June 26th)

2010-06-30T17:41:00.000-07:00

(Ochan - Me - Tio)
My lovely brothers! :)

(Uthe - Sarah - Happy - Dwika - Fadhlia - Dessy - Me - Inten)
They had taken off the kebaya. Haha

(Eki - Ochan - Me)
With the medals!
Umm.. Do you notice that Ochan's medal is red while mine and Eki's are blue? He achieved the highest score on National Exam. :)

Full formation!
(Rifa - Wijang - Dwika - Eki - Fadhlia - Guntur - Happy - Tio - Me - Ochan - Etin - Farah - Helmi)
(Sarah - Uthe - Thia - Adelin - Fadhlia - Inten - Dessy)

(Me - Ochan - Guntur)
Bored while listening to those speech.

(Uthe - Me - Fadhlia)
In the restroom.

I wore 5 cm high heels, by the way.
Hurts like hell; absolutely the most terrible 4 hours in my life!
But still, it was a great day with my acceleration friends. Unequivocally.

Err.. miss 'em already. :(

Officially An Alumni Of SMAN 1 Kota Serang,

Random In The Midnight

2010-06-13T17:59:00.000-07:00

Midnight already. And I’m still sleepless. What to do? Write a post, shall I?

Well, typically me, setiap saat sebelum tidur pasti banyak banget deh yang dipikirin. Bahkan kayaknya pikiran gue paling aktif bekerja saat menjelang tidur. Dan itu menjelaskan mengapa mimpi-mimpi gue kebanyakan campur-aduk dan abnormal. Jadi, daripada gue mimpi macem-macem, dan semua hal yang gue pikirin malah tidak tersampaikan, mending gue tulis disini aja kali ya. Haha what can I say? I always love sharing with strangers! But this is all random, kalo ada hal lain yang lebih penting untuk dikerjain, mendingan kerjain dulu aja deh. Hahaha mau dibaca nggak sih Put? Well, oke. Here, just finish the list and… In-joy!

1. Muhammad Fauzan Triandi (the same person in this post), sahabat terdekat gue selama dua tahun ini, Alhamdulillah baru saja keterima di Teknik Kimia Universitas

Indonesia

dan Sekolah Farmasi Institut Teknologi Bandung. To make it short, pokoknya gue seneng banget. Waktu tau dia keterima UI, gue bahkan sampe langsung terduduk lemas di lantai gitu. Padahal dia sendiri belum tau beritanya. Hahaha hebat kan gue. But he decided to take ITB anyway. Well, whatever he takes, I will always support and encourage him! Inget deh waktu dia keterima Farmasi ITB, dia langsung tanya gue, “Ade seneng?” (dengan emot nangis terharu) Gue kontan langsung bales pake capslock. “Seneng banget Ka, Demi Tuhan, kita jadi satu jurusan gini!” hahaha. But then I remember. Bandung – Jogja ya? It’s 9 hours by train. Meskipun kita nggak pacaran atau apa, tapi tetep aja dia salah satu orang paling berpengaruh dalam hidup gue. Nggak tau deh ya, apa gue bisa tahan? :'(

2. Gue putus sama Restu. Dari bulan April kemaren. Hehe basi ya? Tapi masalah ini somehow sering melintas aja gitu di pikiran gue sebelum gue tidur. Jadi gini lho sodara-sodara, semenjak gue putusin itu, dia jadi antipati banget sama gue. SMS dan mention gue di twitter kebanyakan ga dibales, kalo pun dibales juga singkat padat ga jelas gitu. Ya keki lah ya gue. Secara gue yang mutusin, ga niat juga kali gue ngejar-ngejar dia buat balikan atau apa, gue cuma pengen menyambung tali silaturahmi aja. Tapi dia kayaknya nangkepnya gue ngejar-ngejar dia gitu. Hahaha funny eh? Sampe akhirnya, entah gimana ceritanya, gue malah jadi deket sama keluarga dia. Terutama Mama dan adeknya yang paling kecil. Gue jadi sering jalan bareng si Tante gitu. Dan adeknya, De Acha, juga nempeeeel banget sm gue. Apa-apa sama gue, apa-apa sama gue. Berasa babysitter abis. Dan termasuk si Om juga; tiap dia tugas ke luar negeri pasti bawain gue oleh-oleh. Kemaren dibeliin lukisan gitu dari Jepang (lucu banget!), dan tiga cup eskrim (Haagen Dazs) dari Aussie. Haha makasih ya Om! :) Oh ya, si Tante sama Om ini katanya sih pengen banget gue sm Abang balikan lagi. Kata Om, sejak Abang jadian sama Putri, semangat belajarnya jadi meningkat (iya lho, dia sampe mendadak rangking 1 gitu! HAHAHA gue merasa keren!), terus Putri juga baik, cantik, pinter, ga macem-macem, dst dst dst. Aduh gimana ya, emang gue ini calon menantu idaman banget kali yaaa…. HUAHAHAHAHAHA minta ditampar lo Put. Oke, to make it short again (padahal udah panjang), akhirnya one day gue ngajak dia balikan. Jeng jeng jeng jeng! Iya lho gue beneran ngajakin dia balikan! Dan tau ngga apa jawabannya? “Ga mau. Gue udah suka sama orang lain.” JLEB TO THE MAX! Eh tolong ya, Restu, gue ngajak lo balikan juga karena dorongan dari orangtua lo kali, najis! Kepedean banget sih lo, sok kecakepan! Ditolak tau rasa lo! (Eh tapi kalo diterima pun pasti ceweknya ga sebaik gue) --> minta ditampar lagi.

(Me and De Acha)
*Aduh itu pipinya mita dimamam banget deh! hahaha*
Click here for more photos of me and her. ;)

3. Gue lagi demen dengerin lagu Vidi Aldiano – Cemburu Menguras Hati. Huahahahahha berasa alay ga sih? Iya, alay ya? Tapi beneran enak lho. Serius deh, vibranya Vidi tuh gimanaaa gitu berasa menggetarkan hati. Hahah anjrit gue ga banget deh ah! (fyi, bahkan sekarang pun lagu ini yang lagi playing di telinga gue. Oke, silahkan ngakak!) Eh, maaf, Vidies, no offense. :)

4. Lusa gue ke Jogja. Eh, ralat, besok deh. Ini udah Senin kan? Hehe. Iya, besok gue ke jogjaaaaa. Sendiri lho, sendiri! Hebat kan? Pengalaman pertama nih ke luar kota sendiri! Woohoo agak takut juga sih. Tapi ga apa-apa, harus mulai berani dari sekarang. Kan udah gede Put! (ceilah). Oh ya penerbangannya yang jam 6 pagi lho. Biar nyampe sana langsung ketemu Indita dan Sasha, my bestfriends I found from blogger, dan maen seharian sampe puaaaaas! Ah I bet it’s gonna be suuuuper fun! Can hardly wait for tomorrow! xD

5. Handphone gue rusak parah! Yah, emang udah jadul sih, Sony Ericsson W380i, yang ungu imut-imut gitu lho. HAHA ralat, DULU sih iya imut-imut waktu masih baru, sekarang mah amit-amit gelaaa! Udah sompel-sompel gitu keypadnya (terus masa kata Tio itu sengaja gue sompelin?! Ya nggak lah! Kurang kerjaan amat coba gue!); USB port-nya udah bapuk, connector buat charger dan headset juga udah mendekati ajal (mau ngecharge susah banget meeen!), layarnya udah penuh goresan, flip-flapnya hampir copot, dan masih banyak lagi kecacatannya. Hahaha kayaknya kalo gue jual IDR 50.000 juga ga akan ada yang mau bok ya? Tapi tenang kata Papa nanti dia mau beliin gue hape baru. Tapi nggak sekarang, katanya gue belum perlu. Lagi liburan ini kan? Ntar pas udah mau deket-deket kuliah aja. Dan yang ini otomatis ga akan dijual dong, penuh kenangan gitu selama dua taun di aksel. :) (anyway, kayaknya sih ga akan beli BB deh yaaa… entah kenapa gue ga tertarik banget sm BB. Affordable sih sebenernya, bokap gue juga bukannya ga mampu beliin BB, tapi guenya ga kepengen aja gitu. Kayaknya mending nokia E63 ato iPhone sekalian! BB overrated banget, gue malah jadi berasa alay kalo make BB, apalagi kalo dipakenya cuma buat twitter-an dan fb-an. Iuuhh). Eh, no offense lagi ya BB user! Pendapat pribadi gue kok. :)

6. Gue lagi sakit perut PMS nih. Ini juga jadi salah satu alesan sakral kenapa gue susah tidur gini daritadi—selain semua alasan diatas tentunya. Huhuuuu kata si Kakak sih suru diangetin pake air anget, tapi males bikinnya harus keluar kamar. :’(((

7. I miss him. I miss my brother. Awfully. Dia lagi di Bandung sekarang. Oh this can’t be any clearer. Hahaha yes I miss Mr. Fauzan Triandi—who never actually missed me back. But I just do. I don’t care if he missed me too or not. I just…. miss him. Tuh kaaaan kalo nanti kepisah Bandung – Jogja gimana cobaaa? Huhuhu :’( (mulai mellow)

8. Oke, post ini kayaknya terlalu frontal ya? Tapi bodo ah. :P

9. Oh ya, missing your own brother is not a mistake, eh? I used to do all sorts of things with him. We shared the desk during our two years in acceleration, kemana-mana bareng (kecuali ke WC), kalo minta pendapat pasti harus ke dia dulu, dan begitupun dia ke gue. Kalo ngobrol di telpon bisa sampe jam setengah 12 malem, sebelum akhirnya dua-duanya ngantuk dan tidur deh. hahaha. Jadi kayaknya aneh aja gitu kalo mulai kuliah nanti, ga ada dia lagi di sisi gue. Ga ada yang siap sedia dengerin cerita gue lagi 24 jam. Ga ada yang nenangin gue kalo gue lagi ada masalah, sampe nangis-nangis sesenggukan di depan dia. Pasti bakal aneh banget kan. Dan anyway, dia bakalan pindah ke Bandung, entirely his family, mulai pertengahan Juli besok. Jadi, kalo gue nanti pulang ke Serang, gue ga bisa maen sama dia. Harus ke Bandung! Anjriiit sedih banget ga sih. Huhuhuks :'(((

10. Sudah poin ke-10 dan gue belum juga ngantuk.

11. How’s the World Cup goin’? I don’t really into it, anyway. Gue ga terlalu suka bola. Tapi kayaknya gue dukung Perancis deh. Habis negaranya kan bagus, jadi pasti menang. Haha ga nyambung deh Put. Ya gitu lah pokoknya. Gue ga ngerti bola. Apa sih serunya ngeliatin 22 orang rebutan satu bola di lapangan gede gitu? Mana suara terompetnya weird banget lagi, kayak suara tawon ga berenti-berenti gitu! Hih mending nonton NBA kemana-mana deh! (YAY LAKERS!) Oh ya tapi opening ceremony-nya kemaren keren juga lumayan. Hahaha cemen abis gue nonton itunya doang.

12. Ah yaaaa tanggal 26 besok gue farewell lho! Eh, tapi jadi nggak ya? Duh, ga asik banget kalo ga jadi. Semoga jadi deh. Adek-adekku anggota OSIS yang keren, kerja yang bener ya biar farewell-nya jadi, gue udah booking kebaya lho. Hohoho, dan gue juga udah ngebayangin temen-temen aksel gue yang pada bocek (childish –red) itu make kebaya dan jas. Pasti keren-keren semua deeehh… xD

13. Hamster gue hari ini ulang tahun yang ke-sebulan lho! Hahahaha iya dong udah sebulan tinggal di rumah gue. Keren kan bisa awet gitu… Eh, btw, udah gue kasih makan belum ya tadi? Ah tau ah. Mereka harus diet, udah terlalu gendut! Bahaya kan kalo sampe obesitas… (alibi padahal emang males ngasih makan)

Here they are... Hahaha iya hobinya emang ngegigitin besi kandang. Namanya Rhino dan Eric.
Ahh... Aren't they cute as hell? :#)
Click here for more photos of them.

14. *stare the clock* *yawn* Udah jam setengah satu nih, kayaknya gue mau tidur aja deh.

Well, this is Putri over and out. CIAO!

Benetton Color

2010-06-13T06:26:00.000-07:00

Benetton Color for Man. Loving it.

PS. Thank you, Muhammad Fauzan Triandi for giving me this. hehe :)

SAJAK-SAJAK KECIL TENTANG CINTA

2010-06-02T17:10:00.000-07:00

/1/
mencintai angin
harus menjadi siut
mencintai air
harus menjadi ricik
mencintai gunung
harus menjadi terjal
mencintai api
harus menjadi jilat
/2/
mencintai cakrawala
harus menebas jarak
/3/
mencintai-Mu
harus menjelma aku

- Sapardi Djoko Damono

Don't you just get the shiver?

When

2010-05-28T22:57:00.000-07:00

How do you know when you’re in love with someone? Is it when he’s the first thing that comes into your mind when you wake up and the last thing that you think of before you go to sleep? Or is it when your heart melts every time he looks into your eyes? The truth is, the signs come in a thousand different ways.

When you’re having a really bad day and hearing his voice on the phone just makes it all go away. When all you want to do is listen to him talk passionately about his plans for the future. When you would sacrifice your shopping time just to cheer him up on the field. When a mention of his name makes you miss him so much. When all you want to do is staying up and taking care of him when he’s sick. When your face glows every time you meet him. When even the way he laughs and eats and sleeps fascinate you. When you realize you can finish each other’s sentences. When you can recognize his perfume from miles away. When you laugh when he laughs. When you love seeing the reflection of yourself in his eyes. When you can’t stop smiling every time people talk about the two of you. When you remember him in your prayer. When you feel that he’s the only one who can understand you. When everything that makes him happy will make you happy, no matter how hurtful it is inside. When you’re often torn between your own egocentricity and your feelings for him. When really you’re mad at him but all you want to do is cry on his shoulder. When you can’t help glancing at him every other second as you’re both in the car and he’s seriously watching the traffic. When you actually enjoy the moment when he’s teasing you eventhough you’re pissed. When you dreams of yourself being married to him with kids. When you want to be the woman who makes him coffee and puts on his tie every morning. When you’re seriously reconsidering the relocation because it means leaving him as you move to another country. When you find his boyish whining attitude is endearing. When you find his snoring endearing. When you have your own nickname for him. When every time his name pops up in your inbox you smile. When you gladly wipes his sweat as he changes your flat tire. When you find his singing entertaining eventhough he can’t carry a tune. When you forget when was the last time his name doesn’t cross your mind. When you can remember perfectly the sound of his funny laugh, his fake laugh, and his amused laugh. When he’s the only face you want to be on your 500 bucks Anya Hindmarch be-a-bag. When you would stay awake just to watch him sleep. When you’re seriously thinking of getting a tattoo of his name on your left. When he makes you happy and makes you cry at the same time. When you want him to always be your ‘imam’ when you’re praying. When you’re glad that you can be helpless sometimes because it means you can rely on his strong arms to help you. When being with him makes you want to be a better person. When everything could go wrong in the world and it’s okay, because he’s there, with you.

- as written on Ika Natassa's Tumblr.

Bold what you feel and lemme know if you post it later on. :)

Much love,

BJ Habibie’s Poetry

2010-05-26T20:35:00.000-07:00

Sebenarnya ini bukan tentang kematianmu, bukan itu.
Karena, aku tahu bahwa semua yang ada pasti menjadi tiada pada akhirnya,

dan kematian adalah sesuatu yang pasti,

dan kali ini adalah giliranmu untuk pergi, aku sangat tahu itu.

Tapi yang membuatku tersentak sedemikian hebat,

adalah kenyataan bahwa kematian benar-benar dapat memutuskan kebahagiaan dalam diri seseorang, sekejap saja, lalu rasanya mampu membuatku menjadi nelangsa setengah mati, hatiku seperti tak di tempatnya, dan tubuhku serasa kosong melompong, hilang isi.

Kau tahu sayang, rasanya seperti angin yang tiba-tiba hilang berganti kemarau gersang.

Pada airmata yang jatuh kali ini, aku selipkan salam perpisahan panjang,

pada kesetiaan yang telah kau ukir, pada kenangan pahit manis selama kau ada,

aku bukan hendak mengeluh, tapi rasanya terlalu sebentar kau disini.

Mereka mengira aku lah kekasih yang baik bagimu sayang,

tanpa mereka sadari, bahwa kaulah yang menjadikan aku kekasih yang baik.

mana mungkin aku setia padahal memang kecenderunganku adalah mendua, tapi kau ajarkan aku kesetiaan, sehingga aku setia, kau ajarkan aku arti cinta, sehingga aku mampu mencintaimu seperti ini.

Selamat jalan,

Kau dari-Nya, dan kembali pada-Nya,

kau dulu tiada untukku, dan sekarang kembali tiada.

selamat jalan sayang,

cahaya mataku, penyejuk jiwaku,

selamat jalan,

calon bidadari surgaku …

- BJ.HABIBIE

-Reposted from Teppy

If everyone could love endlessly like Bapak Habibie does, I believe this world will be a better, much better place to live. I do adore you, Bapak. My deepest condolence.

Is now crying,

Gosh! This Makes Me Cry!

2010-05-26T16:21:00.000-07:00

Di Kompas tanggal 8 Mei 2010, bagian Klasika, halamana 59, ada satu kotak yang kira-kira berukuran 1/3 halaman itu, isinya, gambar gedung rektorat beserta danau di bawahnya, dan ada tulisan berukuran gede-gede:

SELAMAT DATANG PARA
MAHASISWA BARU UNIVERSITAS INDONESIA
Yang telah berhasil menempuh Ujian Seleksi Masuk UI (SIMAK UI) 2010

Selamat bergabung bersama Sivitas Akademika Universitas Indonesia
Anda adalah putra/i terbaik bangsa yang terpilih menjadi bagian dari keluarga besar Universitas Indonesia dan berkesempatan mengikuti proses pendidikan yang berkualitas di Universitas terbaik di negeri ini.

So, am I taking the rightest choice? :'(

Speechless,

Congratulations!

2010-05-23T06:25:00.001-07:00

For makes me cry over and over and over again!

Waktu Keterima UI?

2010-05-22T19:26:00.000-07:00

Hai, ini tengah malem dan entah kenapa I feel so eager to write a post. Mungkin karena gue lagi galau kali yaa. Hehe, dan sepertinya post ini akan panjang. So prepare your eyes! ;)

Well, gue mau cerita dikit soal pengalaman gue waktu keterima UI. Hehe. Jadi, ketegangan dimulai sejak H-1 pengumuman, yaitu tanggal 7 Mei 2010. Gue baca tweet-nya Dwi Mustika yang ngasih tau kalo pengumuman SIMAK dipercepat seminggu lebih awal, jadi BESOK, 8 Mei 2010! Lah, gue shock gilaaa. Kata Tika sih ada pemberitahuannya di Kompas, jadilah gue langsung naek motor ke depan komplek, nyari koran Kompas untuk membuktikan kebenaran berita itu. Dan begitu gue sampe kios majalahnya, gue langsung aja akting pura-pura mau beli majalah. Terus pas liat Kompas, gue ubrek-ubrek isinya sampe nemu bagian Klasika, yang ternyata emang disitu ADA pemberitahuan soal pengumuman SIMAK. Uwoo uwooo... Untung aja gue ga jantungan.

Well, oke deh. Tujuan selesai. Gue puter otak biar ga disuruh beli tuh Kompas. Ah! Gue tau! Gue cari aja majalah yang GA ADA disitu. Dan kebeneran Gogirl! ga ada dooong! Yes yes! Jadi gue bilang aja ke penjualnya: “Mas, majalah Gogirl! ga ada ya?” --> muka sumringah.

Doi jawab, “Wah ga ada neng.” Dalem hati gue: Alhamdulillah yaolooh….. “Eh yaudah deh mas kalo ga ada. Makasih ya.” Taro korannya, dan gue pun langsung kabur tanpa beli apa2. MUHAHAHAHA! Licik banget emang. (bawaan orok)

Well, malem itu, malem Sabtu, gue beneran ga bisa tidur. Mikirin besok… Mikirin pengumuman… Mikirin temen-temen gue yang belum dapet PTN… Apakah mereka besok bakal dapet tempat di UI? Ah gue sleepless lah pokoknya! Sampe akhirnya baru bisa tidur pas tengah malem! Tapi jam 4 pagi udah bangun lagi. Elaaahh... Yaudah gue melek aja terus sambil nunggu adzan subuh. Jam setengah 6, gue lari-lari pagi ke depan komplek buat beli Kompas yang ada pengumuman SIMAK-nya. Tapi ternyata belum buka kiosnya! Aaaaahh padahal gue udah capek banget tuh lari-lari dari rumah ke depan komplek! Sial!

Sampe akhirnya pulang lagi, dan kata mama sabar aja tunggu sampe jam 6, terus datengin agen koran yang ada deket rumah juga. Well, oke, gue sabar. Dan setelah jam 6, bener aja tuh agen koran udah buka! Langsung gue beli. Sepanjang perjalanan balik, entah kenapa feeling gue bagus banget. Gue udah optimis banget bisa masuk Teknik Kimia UI, pilihan pertama gue, ambisi gue. Tapi pas sampe rumah… dibuka korannya….. EDAN! NOMOR SEMUA LHO! Harus pake kacamata itu baru bisa keliatan. Ckck. Mama sama adek gue juga bantuin nyari. Gue komandoin kan, “Cari S1 Reguler Teknik Kimia!” Gak lama, adek gue nemu. “Nih ka, nih nih!” Astagaaa deg-degan paraaaaah! Cuma dikit banget yang keterima coooy!

Dan ternyata…. Nomor gue GA ADA di list itu! Anjir, sumpah sedih banget deh beneran. Karena gue pikir, Teknik Kimia sm Farmasi (piiihan kedua) itu passing grade-nya dekeeet banget. Cuma beda dikit! Jadi kalo Tekkim gue ga masuk, ga mungkin Farmasi masuk. Hahaha gue ketawa miris, nahan nangis.

Tapi tidak, kawan! Gue belum menyerah! Gue masih inget sama temen-temen yang lain! OCHAN! “Mah cari Pendidikan Dokter!” Tapi sayange oh sayange… gue ga tau nomor peserta ochan! Oh begonyaaaaa! Yang gue tau, sesekolahan gue yg ikut SIMAK pasti nomor depannya 1013100xxx, nah gue gatau 3 digit terakhir punya Ochan! Dan di daftar Pendidikan Dokter itu, lo tau ga, ada yg nomornya 1013100123! Otomatis gue langsung telepon Ochan,

“Chan nomor peserta lo berapa?” Dia baru bangun kayaknya. Suaranya masih serak.
“Hah udah ada? Ade gimana?” Instead of telling me the number, he asked me my result! Gosh! Padahal gue udah penasaran banget itu!
“Gue ga dapet chan. Hehe”
Dia histeris, “….HAH?! DAPET?!!!” oke. Bangun tidur membuat orang agak budek.
“NGGAK!!!” gue spontan tereak, “Nomor gue ga ada di list yg keterima chan. Udah nomor lo berapa cepet!”
“Oh… yaudah bentar gue cari dulu kartu pesertanya...”
“Errrr 1013100123 bukan?!” gue ga sabaran.
“Hah? Bukan de, nomor gue 393 kalo ga salah. Emang kenapa?”
Mampus, speechless gue. “Eh, gapapa kok, nanti cek sendiri lagi aja yaa.. takut gue ga teliti. Hehe. Daaah!” Gue tutup teleponnya. Dan mikir. Ya Tuhan… Dia gagal lagi. Demi Celana Merlin, gue sedih banget.

Tapi terus mama ngomong, “Ka, ini Farmasi. Kali aja ada nomor kamu.” Oh iya. Gue belum ngecek. Dan pas gue cek bener-bener… Ya Rabb! ADA NOMOR GUE! ADA!!! 1013100354! ITU NOMOR GUE! ADA LOH BENERAN!!!! Gue langsung teriak-teriak, “Maaahh ada mah! Ini ada! Ini nomor kaka! Farmasi maaahh! Ya Allah makasiiiiihhh…” Gue langsung nangis sesenggukan. Histeris banget gue waktu itu. Gue beneran teriak-teriak, “FARMASI UI! FARMASI UI!!!” sambil lompat-lompat di sofa. Hahaha. Mana muka belepotan airmata lagi! Konyol banget deh. Terus pas jam 8, untuk mastiin, gue cek juga di website. Dan begitu liat hasil yang muncul, gue nangis lagi. :')

Anyway, have I tell you that I didn’t cry when I knew that I was accepted in UGM?

Well, UI is my ambition. It really is. Wearing the most famous yellow jacket on my own, is my true ambition. Not that I disrespect UGM or whatsoever, it’s just I have an unexplainable passion on UI. University of Indonesia gitu lho, siapa sih yang nggak tau? “Gue kuliah disitu. Jurusan Farmasi. Iya, ini jaket kuning gue. Keren ya?” Ah pengen banget rasanya gue bisa ngomong gitu. Yah emang sih shallow banget alasannya. Cuma karena jaket almamater put? Cuma karena nama besar UI? Hahaha jaman giniiiii please deh!

Tapi gimana dong, memang hal-hal dangkal seperti itu kan yang bisa bikin kita semangat? Jadi kebanggaan tersendiri aja gitu bisa make jaket kuning punya sendiri.(Catat, punya sendiri bukan minjem). Ah…. Tapi ya bagaimana lagi. Sebelum ngambil UGM pun gue udah mikir 1000 kali kok. Sebenernya rencana gue gini, kalo keterima Teknik Kimia UI, gue mau ngelepas UGM. Kalo Tekkim loh yaa.. Tapi nyatanya yang keterima malah Farmasi. Yo wis…

Secara grade, Farmasi UGM jauh lebih tinggi daripada Farmasi UI. Farmasi UGM udah berdiri sendiri sebagai satu fakultas, sedangkan Farmasi UI masih dibawah naungan FMIPA. Dan gue juga udah nanya ke budhe-budhe gue yang dosen, mereka semua lebih condong ke UGM. Terus kalo di Jogja juga gue banyak sodara. Dan di Jogja bisa ketemu sama Sasha and Indi terus! Hehe :))

Yah… gitu lah pokoknya. Banyak sekali pertimbangan lainnya. Dan akhirnya Farmasi UI gue lepas. Jaket kuning gue lepas. Berat banget sih emang… Apalagi kalo setiap ada orang yang nanya, “Put, ngambil UI apa UGM? Hah, UGM? Yaaah sayang banget UI-nya dilepas!” Aduh itu beneran deh gue mati kutu. Padahal gue punya seribu pembelaan, tapi kayaknya tetep aja ada yang ganjel. Huks.

Tapi gue udah dewasa (cailah). Gue udah bertekad, pokoknya gue ga mau jadi orang berpikiran dangkal yang mendewa-dewakan jaket almamater, nama besar, dan sebagainya, tanpa meninjau perihal grade, lifestyle, UANG SEMESTER (fyi, UI 7.5jt, UGM 1.9jt), et cetera.

Man, gue bukan anak kelas 1 SMA lagi. Gue udah lulus, dan gue udah dewasa!

Hence, I proudly announce to you right now, I choose UGM. I do and I always will. Thank you. :)

Just made an awesome decision,

Aku Ingin

2010-05-19T18:51:00.001-07:00

Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana
dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan
kayu kepada api yang menjadikannya abu

Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana
dengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikan
awan kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada..

-Sapardi Djoko Damono

P.S. Sudah berkali-kali membaca sajak ini, dan tidak pernah merasa bosan. :)

Current Feeling

2010-05-19T18:49:00.000-07:00

You.
At times I hate you so much. You’re the one I wish would just leave and get of out my life. You’ve caused me so much pain and suffering, but at the same time, I wish you were mine and no one elses. I miss you really bad.

(via @wordplaythingy) (via @blogsecret)

Bagaimanapun Saya Adalah Remaja Biasa

2010-05-09T02:51:00.000-07:00

Sakit, betapa Anda tidak pernah membalas "miss you" saya, tapi dengan mudahnya mengatakan "kangen banget" kepada orang yang bahkan tidak pernah saya lihat wajahnya. Selama ini Anda anggap saya apa?

Try Try!

2010-05-08T22:01:00.000-07:00

If yuo can raed tihs, you hvae a sgtrane mnid, too. Can you raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can. I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno’t mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? Yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! If you can raed tihs forwrad it.

If you can read this your brain is 50% faster than those who can't. So tell me, can you read this?

-reblogged from Enep's What I Write

University of Indonesia, finally.

2010-05-07T19:27:00.000-07:00

Accepted in UI, University of Indonesia, majoring in Pharmacy.
First time I cry like hell for an acceptance in university.
Have no idea what else to say.
Am still crying.

Proud of myself,

Einstein

2010-05-03T07:00:00.000-07:00

It's true.

Waktu Gue Keterima UGM

2010-05-02T18:22:00.000-07:00

Barusan gue baca ulang post-nya senior gue di aksel.. namanya ka Dwika Audiyananda, atau nama kerennya... Dwikjohn. Iya emang ga nyambung. Tapi begitulah adanya. Well, jadi tadi entah kenapa, tangan gue tergerak gitu aja buat ngeklik link blog-nya ka Dwikjohn di blog gue ini, dan... disitulah gue baca (untuk ketiga kalinya) post dia yang berjudul: "Dwikjohn's real come back Post". Disitu, dia cerita tentang perasaan dia waktu nungguin pengumuman SNMPTN tahun kemarin. Iya, Seleksi Nasional Masuk Perguruan Tinggi Negeri yang maha sakral itu emang telah berhasil mencampur-adukkan perasaan semua pesertanya yang lagi nungguin pengumuman. Lo bayangin dong, gue yang baca aja udah deg-degan setengah mati, gimana yang beneran ngalamin coba?!

Well, inti dari post ini bukan tentang post-nya ka Dwika. Yang mau gue ceritain adalah, tentang perasaan gue sendiri waktu dinyatakan keterima Ujian Tulis UGM. :)

Jadi... waktu itu tanggal 16 April 2010, pengumuman mestinya baru keluar jam 10 malem gitu, tapi gue udah deg-degan dari pagi aja dong! Mana lagi Ujian Praktek Fisika yang maha dahsyat lagi! Fyi, gue kebagian praktek sambungan RLC yang subhanallah sulitnya setengah mati, mana alatnya sempet rusak lagi! Tapi bersyukur juga sih, berkat praktek Fisika itu gue jadi agak melupakan pengumuman nanti malem. hahaha.

Anyway, selesai praktek itu jam 12. Gue langsung pulang berharap di rumah bisa istirahat dan tidur siang. Tapi mata gue ga bisa diajak damai. Beneran ga bisa merem! Pengaruh hormon adrenalin gue juga kali ya. Tapi alhamdulilah, setelah beberapa jam yang rasanya seperti ratusan abad, jam akhirnya menunjukkan pukul 16.30.. Dan disitulah gue, nongkrongin komputer, nyampah di Twitter sambil nungguin update anak-anak yang juga ikut UTUL. Soalnya, menurut pengalaman yang ikut PBS sih, pengumuman tuh udah bisa diakses dari habis maghrib. Hoooo sumpah bikin tambah deg-degan! Akhirnya untuk mereduksi deg-degan gue yang kian parah, gue chatting aja sm anak kelas 3 lain yang namanya ka Randy Julianto, sebut saja Ranjul, yang katanya bisa ngakses pengumuman UTUL lebih cepat dengan adanya link rahasia. Jadilah gue ngobrol sm dia. Gue paksa dia buat ngecek nomor-nomor lain (asal jangan nomor gue! Gila lo nekat banget!) Tapi kata Ranjul, tunggu sampe jam lima! Dan disitulah jantung gue rasanya mau copot nungguin setengah jam berlalu.... yang rasanya kayak 500 abad! lebay parah

Terus.... akhirnya jam 5.... Tapi kata Ranjul beluuumm.. Sabar dulu....

Ealaaaaaahhhh! Sabar gimana toh mas?! Gue udah mau silet nadi aja tuh saking ga sabarannya! Sampai akhirnya.... ada temen gue anak Tangsel, namanya ka Fiski, yang ngetwit kurang lebih begini, "Eh itu serius tuh pengumuman UTUL udah keluar?!!!!"

Woh langsung aja dong gue retweet! "Kata siapa kak?!!!" Terus dia bales... "Cek di link ini deh: ..." Gue klik kan tuh link-nya... Dan bener aja lho saudara-saudara, di atasnya ada tulisan Hasil Seleksi Final Program UTUL, dengan tampilan seperti ini:

Waktu itu jam 5.15 pm kalo ga salah... Di rumah cuma ada gue sendirian, nyokap lagi pengajian, bokap masih di kantor, dan adek gue lagi maen entah kemana. Gue dilema antara masukin nomor peserta atau ngga. Tapi entah refleks entah apa, akhirnya, gue pasrah masukin nomor peserta yang emang udah gue hafal luar kepala: 1100200277.

Dan habis gue masukin... Loadingnya cepet banget dong mameeeeeenn! Gue sampe ga sempet napas! Tapi begitu ngeliat hasilnya.... Gue yakin saat itu gue beneran lupa gimana caranya napas! Gue cuma bengong. Terus respon kedua gue...

Jejingkrakan di sofa sambil teriak-teriak "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA...." kayak orang gila. Dan gue langsung ngetwit ke ka Fiski yang telah berjasa besar ngasih link sakral itu ke gue. "Ka Fiskiiiiiiiiii aku keterima Farmasi UGM! Pilihan pertama ka! ALHAMDULILAH!!!" tapi reply dia cuma, "Yah, jadi ga ngambil ITB dong?" sungguh respon yang ga asik. --"

Oke, terus respon ketiga gue, nanyain ke Ranjul (takutnya aja link dari ka Fiski itu bohongan), "Ran, UTUL udah keluar ya Ran? Cekin dong nomor gue, 1100200277." Terus beberapa detik kemudian dia bales, "Aduh Put... Ga enak nih gue ngomongnya." Gue cuma bisa melongo kayak orang bego. Mampus deh. Kalo yang tadi emang bener cuma bohongan gimana dong? Hopeless lah gue. Tapi terus si Randy typing lagi, "SELAMET YA PUUUUTTT!!!! FARMASI LOOOOHHH!" dan dia langsung ngirim link-nya ke wall fb gue, jadi semua orang bisa liat.

Anjrrriiiiiiiiittt kampret banget tuh si Ranjul! dia gatau apa gue udah mau nangis darah gitu yaaa! Dan sumpah dia norak banget sampe ngirim link-nya segala ke wall fb gue!

hahahaha tapi thanks a lot deh buat Ranjul yang udah menyemangati gue di saat-saat terakhir!
Anyway, Ranjul itu udah keterima Tek.Industri tapi lewat PBS... :)
Oh ya, see the status below the wall post? yes, I break up. :P

Terus, beberapa menit kemudian, habis gue capek lompat-lompat di sofa kayak orang gila, nyokap akhirnya pulang.... Gue spontan teriak-teriak, "MAMAAAA!!! KAKA KETERIMA FARMASI UGM!!!!"

Reaksi nyokap: bengong. Dia langsung ngehampirin meja komputer. Liat tulisan yang tertera disitu. Gue tanya dia, "Kok ga heboh sih mah? Lulus loh ini! Pilihan pertama!" Tapi dia cuma diem beberapa saat, terus jawab, "Ka... Jogja kan jauh....." dengan muka super melas.

GUBRAK!!!

Jadi ya begitulah... Nyokap langsung telpon Bokap dengan muka galau gitu karena ga rela kalo gue harus kuliah jauh-jauh di Jogja. Tapi beberapa hari kemudian, setelah konsultasi dengan banyak orang, ya dia akhirnya yakin kalo UGM itu emang yang terbaik buat gue. Alhamdulilah... Ga kebayang aja kan ya kalo harus ngelepas UGM? Jalur UTUL yang murah lagi! hehe :)

Lantas registrasi lah kita tanggal 23-nya. Ngukur jaket almamater, dikasih undangan untuk upacara penerimaan, disambut sama senior-senior farmasi... Ah! seneng banget pokoknya! Err.. tapi sebenernya belum begitu lengkap sih kebahagiaan gue. Since my very best brother was failed on the test. I won't mention the name anyway. Dia milih FK-UGM, yang emang standarnya tinggi seampun-ampun. Dan dia gagal. Gue tau banget dia sangat sangat sangat pengen masuk FK-UGM. Ga kayak gue yang meskipun udah keterima juga masih bingung mau ngambil apa ngga. --> ga bersyukur banget

Dia sempet down gitu... Masalahnya, dua sahabat dia yg lain, yaitu gue dan Tio, keterima UGM, sedangkan dia ngga. Tio keterima Teknik Elektro anwyay. Jadi ceritanya, sehari sebelum sebelum pelaksanaan UTUL tuh kita bertiga sempet sleepover di rumah dia gitu, buat belajar bareng, share our feelings, yaaa sort of those things lah. (tau ngga? para cowok itu sampe nangis pas curhat! wohohoho buka aib xP) Jadi emang kebayang sih sakitnya, dua temen seperjuangan dia keterima sedangkan dia sendiri ngga. Hurtful.

Tapi sekarang dia tetep berjuang buat UMB, USM Terpusat, dan SNMPTN. Yaaahhh.. kayak yang ka Dwika bilang di post-nya, dia udah gagal BERKALI-KALI di segala macem seleksi penerimaan (fyi, ka Dwika juga milih FK dimana-mana), tapi ternyata dia bisa lolos di Ujian Seleksi yang paling akhir, yaitu SNMPTN. Well, jadi intinya semua ini cuma masalah waktu, kan? :)

Yah, mari kita doakan semoga sahabat gue itu bisa keterima di Fakultas Kedokteran yang dia inginkan. Amin...

Anwyay, kemaren gue udah nyari kosan loh di Jogja. Dapet di daerah Pogung Baru. Untuk para mahasiswa baru UGM yang baru registrasi juga, mungkin ada yang dapet kosan di daerah yang sama? hehehe, btw, itu daerah elit looohhh... :p *pamer*

Hm. Itu aja kali ya... Makasih banyak buat ka Dwika yang udah ngasih inspirasi buat nulis ini. Dan untuk semua siswa kelas 12 yang masih berjuang untuk mendapatkan tempat di PTN ataupun PTS ternama, ayoo semangat! Percaya deh, ini cuma masalah waktu kok! Yang penting sabar dan jangan patah semangat! :D

Oh ya, ada quote dari ka Fiski yang gue suka banget, dia tweet waktu tanggal 15 April kalo ga salah, waktu pengumuman USM daerah yang menyatakan kalo ka Fiski keterima FTTM ITB. Gini quote-nya:
"Hari ini gue yang iri sama kesuksesan kalian, tapi besok-besok... kalian yang bakal iri atas kesuksesan gue! HAHAHAHAAHA!"
--> beneran ada HAHAHA-nya loh. Well, sounds so snooty, ya? Tapi beneran deh, bikin semangat banget. :)

Campur aduk,

(belated) New Year Thoughts

2010-04-30T04:42:00.000-07:00

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You’ll have your heart broken and you’ll break others’ hearts. You’ll fight with your best friends or maybe even fall in love with them, and you’ll cry because time is flying by. So take lots of pictures, laugh a lot, forgive freely, and love like you’ve never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone’s hand, comfort a friend in need, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, and smile until your face hurts. Don’t be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, LIVE IN THE MOMENT because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back… Happy new year!

- A best friend texted me this last night. Thank you for reminding me that it’s not the breaths I take that I have to worry about, it’s how I breathe.

- Reblogged from A Piece of My Mind.

PS. Ya, Ika wrote it on the last night of 2009 anyway. Sorry for being so uncreative these days.

But I feel inspired, indeed :)

Ketika Wanita Menangis

2010-04-28T19:06:00.000-07:00

Ketika wanita menangis,
itu bukan berarti dia sedang mengeluarkan senjata terampuhnya,
melainkan justru berarti dia sedang mengeluarkan senjata terakhirnya.

Ketika wanita menangis,
itu bukan berarti dia tidak berusaha menahannya,
melainkan karena pertahanannya sudah tak mampu lagi membendung air matanya.

Ketika wanita menangis,
itu bukan karena dia ingin terlihat lemah,
melainkan karena dia sudah tidak sanggup berpura-pura kuat.

Windhy Puspitadewi - Let Go

Akselerasi

2010-04-27T20:15:00.000-07:00

Akselerasi. Menurut kamus, artinya percepatan. Tapi menurut gue, artinya jauh lebih bermakna dari satu kata itu. Words fail. Gue sendiri mulai bingung harus mulai darimana.

Well, akselerasi itu ga sespesial yang kalian bayangkan. Kita belajar biasa, seven to two. Sama aja kayak anak-anak kelas lain. Guru-gurunya pun sama dengan yang mengajar di kelas reguler. Materinya? Sama persis, yang beda mungkin batas waktu untuk penyampaiannya. Kalo di kelas reguler, satu bab (sebut saja Program Linear di Mateimatika), mungkin bisa dihabiskan dalam waktu 3-4 pertemuan, tapi di Aksel, satu pertemuan cukup. Ya, 2 jam. Ulangannya di pertemuan berikutnya, biasanya digabung dengan satu bab lain. Jadi, kalau kita lulus cuma dalam waktu dua tahun, ya kurang lebih begitulah cara belajarnya. haha.

Okay, I sound so snooty here. (But that’s the fact anyway)

Nah sekarang, intro selesai. Ini bukan inti dari apa yang mau gue omongin. Yang mau gue omongin adalah isinya. Isi dari kelas Akselerasi, 23 orang, terhitung sejak semester 4. Bingung ya? Hm.. jadi begini, Aksel itu tadinya ada 29 orang, itu waktu masih semester 1. Tapi semakin kesini, satu persatu dari kami berguguran. Istilah kerennya, degradasi. Sampe akhirnya ya tinggal 23 orang ini. Bukannya mau sombong, tapi kalo guru2 bilang, inilah 23 orang yang benar-benar terpilih. :)

Kesan gue awalnya, Aksel itu bener-bener nyebelin. Gue pribadi, sumpah jijik banget sama sikap anak-anaknya. Egois parah. Ambisius. Ga bisa toleransi. Maniak tugas. Tugas sekecil apapun pasti ga pernah lupa dikerjain. Solidaritasnya NOL BESAR! Cewek sama cowok ga bisa baur. Bener-bener kerasa gap-nya. Sama sekali ga ada keakraban. Ga ada rasa kekeluargaan. Beda jauuuuuuuuuhhh sama kelas gue waktu di SMP, yang 3 taun bareng, dan pokoknya… kebalikannya lah sama Aksel di jaman-jaman pertama. Culture shock juga sih gue. Kelas macam apa nih? Bisa mati gue lama-lama disini.
Tapi mulai masuk semester 3, semester 4, akhirnya, Aksel mulai bisa baur. Ambisiusnya udah kurang. Egoisnya, meskipun masih kentara, tapi udah jauh berkurang. Semester 4, masih ada Heru, entah kenapa gap antara cewek dan cowok masih kerasa. Masih susah untuk toleransi. Yang cewek keukeuh kalo cowok itu terlalu serius, sedangkan yang cowok juga keukeuh kalo anak cewek terlalu childish dan berisik. Gue, waktu itu, berdua sm Ochan duduknya, adalah pihak netral. Bisa dibilang saat itu kitalah bencongnya Aksel. Kubu manapun bisa masuk, tapi ga ada yang deket. Satu-satunya orang yang gue ngerasa deket ya Ochan itulah. Pathetic. Padahal itu udah semester 4. Cuma tinggal 2 semester lagi sampe Aksel bener-bener pisah, tapi sahabat deket gue cuma satu orang, Ochan.

Lalu akhirnya Heru didegradasi. Dia masuk IPS, as he always wanted. Dan Aksel? Awalnya emang ga nyadar, tapi sebenernya dengan keluarnya Heru, itulah titik balik masa-masa jahiliyah Aksel. Hehehe. Pokoknya mulai semester 5, kehidupan di Aksel bener-bener harmonis. Bener-bener kerasa kekeluargaannya. Egois udah hampir hilang. Toleransi dijunjung tinggi. Ambisius benar-benar hilang ga berbekas. Kalaupun ada ambisi, itu berarti ambisi bersama. :)

Dua puluh tiga ini akhirnya berbaur. Ga ada lagi cewek dan cowok, ga ada lagi geng Cilegon dan geng Serang (hehe), yang ada cuma satu: Aksel. Dua puluh tiga ini akhirnya jadi satu.

Well, semester 5 itu hectic banget. Disaat semua kaka kelas udah masuk bab 3 atau 4 di kelas 12, anak aksel baru menginjak bab 1. Frustating abis! Tertekan lah pokoknya. Mana PR tuh masih bejibun, tugas, makalah, praktek juga sama aja. Guru-gurunya pada ga punya perasaan… Dikira kita robot kali! Tapi mari berterimakasih sama Pak Agus yang waktu itu ngasih tugas praktek kesenian untuk ngaransemen lagu. Hehe. Kalo ada anak Aksel yang baca ini, pasti langsung ngeh deh kenapa gue berterimakasih? ;)

Iya, jadi, waktu itu, habis kita tugas praktek, kita nyanyi-nyanyi bareng gitu… Beneran dua puluh tiga orang nyanyi bareng! Awalnya nyanyi lagu Indonesia Jaya, yang entah kenapa, meskipun lagu wajib, tapi liriknya dalem bangeeett.. Dan emang paaaaaasss banget sm keadaan Aksel waktu itu. Nih kalo mau tau liriknya:

INDONESIA JAYA (click to see in Youtube)

Hari hari terus berlalu tiada pernah berhenti
Seribu rintang jalan berliku bukanlah suatu penghalang
Hadapilah segala tantangan, mohon petunjuk Yang Kuasa
Ciptakanlah kerukunan bangsa Kobarkanlah dalam dada, semangat jiwa pancasila…

Hidup tiada mungkin tanpa perjuangan, tanpa pengorbanan, mulia adanya… Berpeganglah tangan satu dalam cita, demi masa depan Indonesia Jaya…

(Sumpah ini lagi ngetik aja gue sambil nangis loh!)

Ya, jadi begitulah. Kita semua mewek-mewek sambil nyanyi itu (yang ceweknya sih), terus Eki ngomong, “Kita dipertemukan oleh takdir di kelas ini… Dua puluh tiga orang…” dia ngomong apalagiiiii gitu, tapi gue ga ngeh karena waktu itu semua anak langsung teriak-teriak terharu gitu. Gue sendiri, yang teramat sangat cengeng, jelas aja langsung nangis bombay. Hehe.

Anyway, we actually took a lot of photo, tapi sayangnya di laptop gue ga ada nih. Ah payah. --“

Terus habis itu… Yaa, kembali ke masa- masa penyiksaan semester 5. Tugas lagi, makalah lagi, laporan lagi, PR lagi, praktek lagi, ulangan harian lagi… Halah! Sampe mau meledak nih otak!

Tapi anehnya (atau beruntungnya?), kita bisa ngelewatin semua itu. Rangking di rapot udah ga ada yang peduli. Terbukti dengan Dessy yang jadi rangking 1, dan Inten yang jadi rangking 2. Hahahaha, yakin deh, kalo anak-anak ditanya sekarang siapa yang rangking 1 waktu semester 5, pasti ga ada yang inget! Bukan apa-apa, tapi waktu itu emang udah jamannya ribet banget. Udah mulai pada pendaftaran PTN, belum lagi foto-foto buat yearbook yang nyita waktu banget. Jadi kalo gue bilang sih, itu anak dua hebat banget bisa nyelip-nyelip disaat semua orang lagi lengah. Gue sendiri, waktu itu malah rangking 6. Grafiknya turun muluuuu… hahaha (malu-maluin)

Terus, masuk semester 6 ya? Wah, itu sih udah hampir ga bisa nafas. Semester 6 cuma belajar efektif satau setengah bulan. Hebat ya? Harus gue akui, Aksel dimasa itu bener-bener hebat banget. Disaat semua anak kelas 12 yang reguler udah masuk pemantapan-pemantapan buat UAN, anak Aksel malah baru beres bagi rapot. Hahaha. Dan begitulah… pendaftaran PTN dimulai, semua orang berusaha menciptakan cara belajar yang paling efektif supaya antara belajar buat UAN dan belajar untuk tes PTN dapat terimbangi. Gue? Mencret. Suer, pusing bangeeeeettt! Mana waktu itu bisa dibilang gue tuh sutradara-nya yearbook di kelas. Disaat semua orang udah pulang dan tidur siang di rumah, gue sm Ochan malah rapat buat yearbook sama OSIS. Nyebelin banget ngga sih? Yah… tapi gue ga pamrih kok, Insya Allah. :)

Akselerasi masih tetep kompak sampe detik-detik terakhir. Belajar bareng, saling menyemangati, saling mendoakan. Well, kita harmonis banget lah kayak keluarga cemara. Haha. Dan kompaknya terus dibawa sampe UAN dan UAS. Hahahaha… bohong deng, waktu UAN mah kita bersiiiihh.. Cuma waktu UAS, yaaa harus diakui sih, kita sangat amat KOMPAK! Hahaha. Oke, let’s just skip this part. :p

Sampe akhirnya, UAN selesai, UAS selesai, tes-tes PTN yang maha sakral seperti Ujian Tulis UGM dan SIMAK-UI juga akhirnya selesai. Tapi perjuangan belum berhenti sampai disitu. Mengutip kata-kata Bu Tevi, guru BK, kita ini ibaratnya segitiga. Dua puluh tiga orang semuanya awalnya dibawah. Gandengan tangan, saling men-support. Puncak segitiga itu tujuan kita. Meskipun tempatnya sempit karena segitiga berbentuk meruncing

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yang menggambarkan ketatnya persaingan menuju PTN-PTN ternama, tapi kalau kita yang dibawah tadi itu tidak melepaskan gandengan tangannya, pasti semua bisa naik sampe ke ujung segitiga. Yang artinya, kita bisa sukses bareng-bareng.

Sampai saat ini, yang udah keterima di PTN ada 13 orang… Tinggal 10 orang lagi. Yak berjuanglah, kawan! Gue yakin orang-orang hebat macam kalian pasti udah punya tempat di salah satu PTN ternama di Indonesia ini. Cuma tinggal masalah waktu. :)

Oh ya, by the way, hari Senin kemarin pengumuman UAN baru keluar. Dan mau tau ngga? Pemegang nem tertinggi sesekolah gue itu siapa? Ochan. Iya, temen sebangku gue dari kelas 1 itulah yang akhirnya jadi murid terbaik se-SMANSA. Iya, Ochan yang anak Aksel itu. “Yang anak aksel itu…” hehe, bangga ga sih kalian kalo jadi gue? Kelas yang belajarnya cuma dua tahun ini, bisa ngalahin kelas-kelas yang belajarnya tiga tahun. Bangga banget nget nget nget. Bahkan, waktu Pak Aziz (kepala sekolah) ngumumin soal itu, anak-anak Aksel yang cewek langsung pada teriak-teriak sambil nangis bombay lho. Gue juga ngga ngerti kenapa, mungkin saking bangganya kali ya. Well, he deserves it. Bisa dibilang, Ochan itu orang paling berjasa di Aksel, karena dia KM. hehe. Tapi serius, dia KM yang bertanggung jawab banget. Hebat banget pokoknya.. :’)

Tapi sekali lagi, perjuangan aksel belum bisa dikatakan selesai sampe disini. Masih ada 10 orang yang harus berjuang demi masa depannya di Perguruan Tinggi. Dan 13 orang lain yang udah dapet, tentunya sekarang tinggal berdoa aja buat mereka yang belum. Begitu kan? :)

Hmm… Apalagi yaaa?

Terlalu banyak kenangan manis di Aksel, gue jadi susah nuanginnya. Ini, serius deh, tiga lembar di Ms.Word ini baru sepersepuluh dari semua cerita yang gue punya tentang Aksel. Nanti deh, kalo gue ada waktu luang lagi, bakal gue tulis semuanya. Tapi yang jelas, ga akan ada kata Tamat, karena kisah Aksel akan terus berlanjut sampe kita kakek-nenek kelak. Hehe, iya toh? ;)

Feel proud,

Think Before Saying

2010-04-27T01:25:00.000-07:00

One thing I learn during my almost-two-years time in Acceleration class: Think first before you say anything. COMPLETELY anything, be it nice or not.

Well, it seems that not everyone is pleased with what you say. Perhaps you didn’t mean anything bad in your words, but you should put yourself in others’ shoes. Do you think they will take it the same way you expect them to?

Ya, that is it.

I, personally, never think that much before saying anything. Not even thrice; not even twice. It's like my mouth is ungated, out of control. There's ever one situation where I was so mad about one thing (you shouldn't know). And a friend, T, apologized to me for what he did. Well, he didn't actually make some big problems or what, but I was just really, really mad that time that I didn't even know I could scold at him like that. T was shocked. But I was not. I was mad, remember? And my mouth is out of control. As usual.

During the next one week, T didn't greet me at school. Like, AT ALL. Nope. No hello, no messages, and even no "Could you solve this one?" at Math class like we ALWAYS used to be. And at that time, I didn't really care.

Until few days later passed by, I finally felt awkward with him. I texted him and asked "What is wrong with us?" and as I remember, he only answered, "Nothing much, put." And I decided not to reply back. I'm an ego. It's hard for me to wave the white flag first. If I didn't think I've made a mistake, why should I feel sorry? And oh goodness, who he thinks he is! Ya. That is, what on my thought feeeeww months ago, before I start growing mature. Well, that time, the common sense it is which helped me to get through the awkward moment and attempted to be the bestfriend of him again. So as I remember, I apologized to him. Via SMS. I know, I'm a fucked-up little chicken.

And fortunately, he forgave me. Is it right, T? :)

But then, there's one day, Friday if I'm not mistaken, where me and my acceleration fellas, gathering in a circle, sat, and played "Just tell the truth!". LOL. And it is, if I'm not mistaken again, two days before the National Exam started. Almost-two-years trapped in a class together, shared the same feeling of frustated and depressed because of the hectic schedule of subjects, of course huge enough to make us feel senasib-sepenanggungan. We're almost like a family. :) Ah ya, back to the topic. Well, that time, we played the game, kind of Truth or Dare but it is only Truth or... Truth. hahaha. The turn was decided with whirling the bottle of Aqua or something. And one by one, we shared our own truth. Who are the persons we hate, who are the persons we thank a lot, what is our feeling about something, et cetera.

Until it was T's turn to play.

I still remember, very clearly, about everything he said. Begini kurang lebih, "Gue ngerasa seneng banget di aksel... Di sini gue belajar banyak... bla bla bla... Gue sendiri orangnya sering memandang rendah orang lain, gue akuin itu, bla bla bla... Tapi di samping itu, sebenernya ada satu orang yg gue kurang suka sikapnya belakangan ini. Yaitu Putri. Kenapa putri? Karena dia ngomongnya suka ceplas-ceplos. Gue sendiri pernah ngalamin. Waktu itu begini begini, terus pas gue sms baik-baik, dia responnya malah nggak enak.. Jujur gue orangnya ga gampang untuk dibentak-bentak seperti itu. bla bla bla....."

Jujur ya. Sangat menohok. The words left me breathless. And when T stared at me, I only smiled and murmured, "Sorry..". Err what we call it? Senyum miris? I couldn't think righteously. The words is inevitably right. But I couldn't accept it; my ego couldn't. But then goes to another person turns, Sarah, Inten, Dessy, Happy, Fadhlia, Dwika. They all said the same thing like T just said before. "Put, lo tuh ceplas-ceplos. Kadang suka nyakitin hati. Gue tau lo pinter, tapi ga usah lah ditunjukkin. Bikin sakit hati." Even Fadhlia said, "Ada suatu saat yang gue sampe nangis di rumah gara2 kepikiran omongan lo Put."

And that. That time. I finally cried. Not sobbing anyways, only a little cry, cause my heart cried muuuch much louder. I feel like losing some friends. And I, after all, could put myself in others' shoes. I feel hurt. I must have been feeling hurt if I were them. And then the game was at last finished. We ended it up with hugging each other. Saying sorry to each other. And still on the circle, we put our hands together, and yelled, "GO AKSEL GO AKSEL GO!" (hahaha iya gue tau kok, ga kreatif banget kan?)

And I also apologized to Fadhlia, Dwika, Sarah, and all the people I hurt on the past. Oh, also to T! I apologized to him like in gazillion times! LOL. And you know what? The sentences of them forgiving me, that time, is such a releasing pain-killer. It's like the feeling you got right after Lebaran passed, only this one is much much much more releasing. I feel blessed. I feel welcomed again.

And about the T... Well, if you read this, I just wanna say sorry once again. You gave me a great lesson of life. You teached me how to down to Earth even when you are the most clever person in the world. You teached me how to choose the priority and solve only the most urgent things to solve. I don't know, but if it's not because of you and O, I wouldn't be this mature right know. Well, okay, I'm not that mature, but at least I'm not that childish anymore. I don't annoy people like I always used to do.. (or I still do?) hehe

Acceleration Family, 2008-2010, is such a special gift God gives to me. I learn a lot there, a lot more than just educational stuffs. I met cool people, which now mostly I became close friends with. hehe. But most of all, I can be me there. I can be the one I really am. Because you guys always welcome me, no matter how freak I am. heheh we're all freak, aren't we? :p

So this is it. I gotta take a bath. And I'm as hungry as pumpkin, oh goodness! (padahal tadi baru makan kebab) --"

Feel blessed,

Any suggestion what to write in this neglected blog?

2010-04-26T03:36:00.000-07:00

Just send me the comment. :)

Hi!

2010-04-17T04:50:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah...
I'm accepted in Gadjah Mada University, majoring in Pharmacy.
Thanks for every pray you give to me. :)

Huge Sorry

2010-01-15T13:54:00.000-08:00

This is going to be my first post in 2010, and maybe also become the last post for like... 6 months ahead.
You know, I'm in my senior year and it's so hard to update stuff here, but I do update a lot on Twitter. LOL!
Hem.. There will be a final exam on March, and there will come soooo many selection test for universities afterward.
So, I am really trying to focus on it and leave those unimportant things behind. For the sake of my future, seriously!

So, here I wanna say HUGE sorry not to update this blog anymore, but thanks for the feedbacks anyways! keep em coming guys! :D

Ah....
I promise this won't be a goodbye. I will be back! *cross my heart*
And someday, when you open this blog and find me update, I swear, it's gonna mean that I have been a college student. :)

*give me your Amen pleaaaasseeee!! HAHA

Much love,
Putri

Merryyyyyy Christmasssss!

2009-12-24T00:33:00.001-08:00

Woaaa... It's Christmas once again! The second christmas for my lovely Princess Diary! :D

It's time for Santa's gifts, mistletoe kisses and family togetherness!
Evergreen boughs that fill our homes
With fragrant Christmas scents,
Christmas cookies, turkeys stuffed,
Festive holly berry,
Little faces bright with joy,
Parties, songs, beribboned gifts,
Silver bells that tinkle,
Christmas trees and ornaments,
Colorful lights that twinkle;
These are some of the special joys
That come along with Christmas.

Oooohhh seriously, I really, really do love Christmas (eventhou I'm a pure moslem).
especially the Christmas Eve itself! Roads fulled with Christmas decoration; green, red, green red, mistletoe, christmas tree, fat-man with Santa's costume!
aaaahhh~ those all are beautiful! Absolutely a perfect moment for holiday! :D

Well then, Merry Christmas for those who celebrate!
Me wishing you all the joy and blessing in this holy day!

love you!

YAY I'M BACK!!!

2009-11-28T21:14:00.000-08:00

Howdyyyyy everyone!
Here's my smile for everyone who reads this post! tee-hee ;) A coquettish smile, I know. :p

So, what's up? It's been 2 months since my last post, right? What do i miss? nothing? oh, i see... you guys are moving to twitter, eh? LOL! Got you, buddies! Hahaha. Well, as a matter of fact, i am kinda addicted to twitter too. But no, I'm not moving. I still belong to this Princess Diary. ;) But alright, I can't hide the fact that i'm such an active in Twitter. :p

Ah, don't blame me for that, pals! Twitter is hundred times more fun than blogger, if i should say honestly. We can update everytime we want without any guilty feeling of "will people like my tweet?" or "will people gimme comment for this tweet?" hahahah seriously, it's a great invention of internet world! So, pardon me if I'm getting so much used to that than this 'old-but-lovely' friend of mine. :) Okay, I have neglected this one too much, I know. -,-

Aaaahh by the way, how's life going on your side, fellas?
Mine is going great. Hm... would be too long if I dictate it all, so how about making a list? (as always)

1. I have a new boyfriend. ;D His name is Restu, and he's so sweet, and he's so cute, also a smarty one, and he's so... oh okay. lets move on!

2. I'm going to college next year. Which means i'll be so fu*king busy on the next months. Yeah, just pray for me, fellas. I'm keeping my eyes on Indonesia University and Gadjah Mada University. hehe, gimme Amen, okay? :)

3. I will be 16 on the next January! oh yeah, I'm getting older, I know. But I always love birthday! presents, you know? hehehe ;D

4. Does any of you realize, that this month is..........

THE FIRST ANNIVERSARY FOR MY PRINCESS DIARY!!!

Aaaahhh thanks a bunch for every of you who has following me among these years and gimme such sweet comments for every my posts! And also for those who has give me sort of awards to be proud of. oooohhh, thanks a lot, buddy! I won't be as huge as this without you guys my beloved readers. Oh man, come on, 156 followers is such a huuuuuuuge number! :--D
Thanks a lot, once again. :")

5. I went to Jogjakarta last two weeks. Had four blast days there, and buy lot of things in Malioboro Street. hihi ;) Here I share some pics for you. In-joy, pals! :D

*My lovely grandma. She got stroke. :(

*a great Artisan Batiks I saw in Mirota.

*big family of Woesthon's. :) (some of them was still inside the house)

*Taman Sari. Taken by me.

--> Also doing a kopdar with my blog fella, Indita Setyorini. Took some photos as well, but strangely, I can't find where the file is. huhu, too bad ya ndi :((

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Well, that's all. Have so much stories to tell but lil bit too late to update. Expired already! HAHA

Will update later then. Soon, i hope. :)

xoxo,

Insecure

2009-11-28T21:09:00.000-08:00

Have you ever felt so insecure about yourself? Like, whatever you do, you just don’t feel comfortable about it?

Well, I have, and as matter of fact, I still do. Everytime I finish on something, I always think “Is that okay? Will people think it’s okay?”. Everytime I go out, I always look at other people’s eyes. Are they staring at me with pondering looks? Do I fit perfectly among my groups? And despite all the bitchiness I wrote here on my blog about how I don’t care with people’s words, I’m not that serious. I do still care. And you’ll never hear me talking that bold in real life. You would see me as a complete introverts when you meet me for the first time. I only get loud when I’m surrounded by those I knew and I feel comfortable to be, and that’s a very rare thing to see.

Feeling insecure isn’t good. It makes you always want to appear right in front of other people. It makes you put thick mask or makeups on your faces so that they can accept you. It makes you lie about yourself to people, putting all your natural you behind.

If I look back to know where this insecure feelings come from, I guess it must’ve been my childhood. I was completely different (and still am) at that time. And being different among those ‘intolerant’ environment just made it worst. I struggled my way to be ‘acceptable’. But as I said before, it’s all about makeups. It makes you feel good, but in the end, you have no choice but to clean it up, leaving your natural look uncovered.

And now, I’m being totally confused. I met many different people these years. How do I know which mask I should put on so that I’ll get a warm welcome? What if I took the wrong one? What if, even with the right one, it still didn’t feel right? If I didn’t feel good wearing those masks, why should I bother to?

I remembered reading an entry by Fanny couple of days ago. She didn’t pretty much like the way she had changed right now. I asked myself, how about me? Will I still be able to look back to see whether I liked my new me? I’ve been putting all these masks for like, all my life. And to decide which ‘me’ I really like is almost impossible, as right at this moment, I have forgotten who I used to be and who I really am.

I wonder what people (and I mean all people I know) would think if they know the man behind these makeups. Will I still get a place among them? Hmm.. a question which is hard to answer. More like scientific quest where the answer will always be given after you perform the experiment.

So, in regards of stepping out of these masks one by one, I wrote this entry with a hope that someday I could show my real me.

--Reblogged from Aulia Tegar

awards agaaaain

2009-09-22T22:48:00.000-07:00

another awards from Laras . :)
makasih ya sayang.

talk much later soon, readers! love y'all, and happy (belated) iedul fitri by the way!
muah! :*

Award!!!

2009-09-08T04:48:00.000-07:00

Got an award! yay!

Thanks to Wawan and Anind. Funny how you both put me on the 3rd rank! LOL.

Sorry for not obeying the rule of posting this award.
Too busy... :(

Smell ya later, dear all.
This is Putri Erdisa over and out.

CHEERIO!

xoxo,

Sorry for no updates.. :(

2009-09-01T06:56:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not posting anything. I've been so busy these days, and, well, it's just hard to make some long updates here.

But you could follow my twitter if you really wanna know me. hehehe. Follow me on here.

Ah! And I've made a tumblr too! hahaha :D
Have been soooo addicted with it! It's sooo simple and I just love it! You guys should try it too! :)

But so sorry--much sorry, I couldn't share the url here. It's way too private that it even only has 4 followers; and they're my closest friends. :)

Thanks anyway for keep following my blog and click my link on your dashboard. Thank you. Really, thank you so much! I really really do appreciate it. :D

You're all best! I love you. :)

xoxo,

Ten Fashion Stuff to Die For (Part II)

2009-08-24T14:35:00.000-07:00

Howdy all! :D

Wow, it's been a little while since the last post, right? Well, i've been overwhelmed by the fasting moments. Not eat and not drink for about 14 hours really makes me suffer. Drooped a lot. My tummy can't even stop grumbling for all day! And the thirsty throat too! Oh God... could you just imagine that?

So, remember my last post about Ten Fashion Stuff to Die For (part I)? Wow, i really didn't think that it would be such a great post. All of you came and give me such sweet responses. That flatters me a lot, you know? hahaha :D

but thanks anyway for coming and giving me comments. it means everything, ladies! haha :)

Oh well guys, maybe now I should continue the first part about Ten Fashion Stuff to Die For, yeah, five stuff more, right? hmm, i already have some items here in my head. sooo, just scroll down and enjoy this, people! :D

Ten Fashion Stuff to Die For (pt. II)

6. Doctor Martens Bootsyyy

taken from Kak Caroline's blog, and yes, i adore her a lot!

oooohh myyyy the pinky one! am drooling! xP

7. Roberto Cavalli's dresses

seriously, I'm speechless.

8. Fringe Bootsyyyyy

this one is my fave! droooooling over it! LOL xD

9. Manolo Blahnik's shoes

as always, the last one is my fave! oh myyy army rocks! hahaha

10. Oh wow! Here comes the last stuff. Hahaha. Well, of course last but not least, even this one (if I must say) is the most crucial thing from all the point! hoho :D Well, e-ehmm *clearing my throat* ( LOL ) So, the last to-die-for fashion stuff is... (drumroll, please :P): Your own outfit, guys. What you wear, and you're comfort with it: that's a very to-die-for fashion stuff. It's unlimited, it's only yours. It derives from your own head, right? The combination of color, the mix-match, it's all just cannot be copied by others. They may steal your style, but no-no, they cannot steal what's on your head. Ha! Ah, and the most important thing is, you're comfort with it.

"Guys, you may look fabulous, stunning, gorgeous or else, but if you're not comfort with what you wear, well, you lose the point then." :)

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Oh-kaaayy! Well done! It's finished already! yay yay yay! hahahaha this is such a fashion week for my blog, eh? LOL.

Anyway, thanks a bunch for read this post, people! I love yoooooou! Please drop some comments too, okay? :P

So, I gotta go now. This is Putri over and out.

Cheerio, folks! :D

xoxo,

P.S. pictures taken from: style.com (Cavalli), deviantart.com (Doc Marts), Photobucket.com (Blanhik) , and Shopstyle.com (fringe boots). Thanks for all! :)

Ten Fashion Stuff to Die For (part I)

2009-08-19T06:07:00.000-07:00

1. All Alexander Wang's item

(sexy leather backpack) (super cool bucket bag!!)

2. Christian Louboutin's heels

3. Stella McCartney's Dresses

4. Louis Vuitton Tribal Heels

For God's sake! it costs US$2,700! Ka-Ching!

5. Anya Hindmarch's Bags

(my fave one!)

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Well, 5 others more will follow soon then. :)

Ah ya, Happy Fasting for the muslims anyway! Ohh fasting month... me likeeeyy!

hehe :D

Sorry for the lack of serious blogging, by the way, peeps. I hope you could understand what I am really into right now. I will write some serious things later. Only if I have some spare time. So just keep an eye! ;)

all pictures taken from google search

xoxo,

Independence Day

2009-08-16T17:47:00.001-07:00

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Selamat Hari Kemerdekaan Indonesia!

Tadi saya sudah menulis sebuah post yang panjaaaaaang banget tentang Indonesia, tapi internet error dan akhirnya hilang semua tulisannya.

Maaf, jadi sekarang saya tidak akan menulis apa2 lagi. Indonesia tahu apa yang saya pikirkan. Mungkin lain kali akan saya bagi dengan kalian, namun sekarang saya sudah terlalu emosi, jika harus jujur.

Well, overall, Happy Indepence Day for my beloved country, Indonesia!

More Awards

2009-08-16T06:26:00.000-07:00

Thanks to Nadia.

and this one, thanks to Henny.

You guys are too sweet! Love ya . :)

xoxo,

A Plate of Hot Cookie, please?

2009-08-13T23:41:00.000-07:00

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I really, really need this. Euh, wish that my mom could make it. ;(

Hiatus

2009-08-12T01:02:00.000-07:00

No mood for blogging, writing, combining sentences, paraphrasing, quoting, or even blogwalking (the easiest part of blogging thingy)! Totally overwhelmed by school stuffs, really.

So hiatus may sounds good. hehe :p

Catch ya later, folks!

xoxo,

Food Porn, OMG!

2009-08-09T05:05:00.000-07:00

Merlin's pants!!! Am craving for all of these things! Oooohhhh really hope I could get 'em now! And I mean it; NOW! grrrhhh.... (can't hold any patient)

all pictures taken from deviantart.com; but sorry again, i've been forgotten to save the specific links. pardon me... :(

P.S. Am getting ready for Physics Test tomorrow. Well, gotta study harder now!

Bye for now, folks! ;)

xoxo,

Nyampah

2009-08-06T05:53:00.000-07:00

Dulu ya, kalo gue ngepost itu, dalam semalem udah dapet minimal 5 komen.

Lah sekarang, didiemin sampe busuk juga kayaknya tiap post tuh palingan cuma dapet 2-3 komen. Hey, ada apa dengan para blogger?

Atau emang kualitas postingan gue yang menurun? errr....

I'm crazy about...

2009-08-04T05:32:00.000-07:00

ALL OF THESE CUTE LITTLE PETS!

Aaaaaaahhhh... How I miss my Chiro (the white cat), and Pocky and Rocky (the hamsters)! They've died already. huhuhu ;(

Ohh GOSH! Look at their eyes! Pure and bright... aaaahh... they're just darn cute! Miss 'em really!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, maybe I should get a bunny someday. hehehe :D

all pics are taken from deviantart.com, sorry for not giving the certain URL. :)

P.S. I'll have a math test tomorrow. Gotta go study now! CIAO!

xoxo,

Loooong Update! heheheh :P

2009-07-31T17:09:00.000-07:00

Ahhhh…. How’s life, readers?

Mine is extremely hectic currently! Full of school-bit*hy thingy all week long! Only rotating between wake-up-early, flag ceremony on Monday (yeah, I hate Monday!), fu*king-boring-teachers, plenty of idiot homeworks, unintelligible lessons (GOD! How I hate Physics very much!), crazy fellas (their egos are very unbeatable; and it sucks! You know, I’m still 15, quite younger than others, but I’m very much more mature than them! grrrhh) and so on and so on… Well, truth to be told, those things are quite awful to drive me out of my sane.

Yeah. I’m insane now. LMAO!

Okay. Stop talking about school stuffs.

Talking about this lovely-silly-pretty blog (lol), it seems like I’ve neglected this blog, ya? Hmm, maybe I still keep posting at least one post per week, but what I really feel is, I neglected this blog. Fulfill it with those corny-cheesy-unimportant thingies! Ieuwh. Make me trembling sometimes when I realized that I’ve been so corny these days. LOLs. So pardon me, pals… You know me much, I believe, that I’ve been so overwhelmed nowadays. :)

By the waaaaaaaaaay, let’s talk about others again! Hahahaha.

Hm, let’s see. Oh-oh, about the vote on the sidebar! Woah, it has been closing from yesterday, peeps! And I got 96 votes! Hihihi, thanks fellas for voted there! I really appreciate you guys! Hehe. And the result is, actually, just makes me WOW-ing. LOL! The preponderance of the voters is in support of the last choice I made: MORE FASHION VIEWS! Ahahahha funny, very funny! Seriously, I couldn’t believe that! What are you hoping from a tomboy girl like me?!

Well, maybe the old readers know me better, which I was posting about fashion-thingy like for 10 day a month! Hahaha. Well, the only reason why I keep posting about fashion is, I don’t have anything to write but that! FASHION! It seems that fashion was soooo happening those days, and everyone was keep commenting me through the posts about fashion! So I love to post it more and more each day! But in fact, which is very shameful, I don’t know anything about fashion! All I know is: trench coat is an always-happening item, tight has sooooo many colors, and wedges is the one which comfort yet cute at once! Others? Euh… *shake my head*

LOLs!

By the way,

Talking about my life deeper. Let's start it up with a list.

1. I’m still single. But I’m NOT available. It’s a two different meaning, pals. Note it!

2. Ramadhan is coming closer, I love Bulan Ramadhan so much! With its warm atmosphere all day long, fasting—which makes me slimmer, saur, tarawih, petasan, mudik, and other beautiful Islamic thingy. I love ‘em! But one thing I hate is: we will have a middle-test on Bulan Ramadhan! Which means that I have to do it with my tummy grumbling on my ears! Ahhh…. I couldn’t imagine that!

3. I am so emotional these days. I’ve been known as a crybaby ass on my class. Crying only because of Physics, jealousy (Ochan can do Physic questions easily, and I can’t!), and other unimportant things which is actually not too worthy to be cried on. Don’t know why. Hormone works, maybe? I have no idea. :|

4. I’m addicted to Oreo soft cake.I can’t handle myself not to eat at least one per day! I ate 5 per day, usually! GOSH! Is that true that oreo contains some addictive matters?

Hahaha.

Anyways, I’m going to a birthday treat of a friend, Indra. In Pizza Hut.

Abaaaang… makasih yaaa traktirannya! Hehehehe ;D

Having so much fun with ‘em all, my beloved friends, Angga, Windy, Ridho, Eki, and Indra. We called ourself Secara. Hehehe. Ah by the way, the two on the back is addition. The girl in yellow jacket is Vita, indra’s gf, and the tosca one is Deane, Vita’s friend. They’re not Secara. Secara is eight by the way, but two of us can’t attend the party, Mada is on Jakarta, and Rainy is sick. Ahhh miss you two, pals. They’re my real besties :(

I’ve got some photos to share here! Enjoy! :D

Me on the front, with green T-shirt and browny-reddish hair. hehe. kata temen2 gue: nakal kamu Put ngecat rambut segala! ahahhahaha biariiiiinnn xp

And also, a photo of me and the girls of my class, playing colek-colekan-krim-kue-bekas-surprise-party-nya-Dwika. hahahahah seru banget sumpaaaaaaahh! muka gue sampe penuh krim semua! parah banget itu anak-anak, kita sampe cuma diliatin sama guru-guru. Dalam benak gue, mungkin mereka cuma bilang, "Ckckck.. wajar ya anak aksel kayak gitu, mereka kan anak luar biasa!" luar biasaaaaaaaaaaa mah! SLB kali luar biasa! wkwkwkw xD

here's the photo:

ga penting ya editannya! hahaha maklum, saya newbie dalam potosop-potosop-an! LOL. Ah ya, itu gue pake kerudung, soalnya hari jumat. Biasanya sih emang ngga pake kerudung kok. hehe :P

Ahhh.... That's it for today.

This is Putri over and out! Enjoy your satnite, and say no to drugs! hahaha.

See ya, buddies! xD

P.S Got two awards from Farah. Thanks dear... Dibagikan untuk siapa aja yang mau ngambil deh, silahkaaaann... hehehe :D

munching Oreo soft cake (again), hehe, :P

LMAO!

2009-07-30T03:30:00.000-07:00

Tau ngga? Tadi di sekolah gue nangis. Kenapa? Karena ga ngerti penjelasan guru soal Fisika.

Bagus banget kan? Betapa cengengnya gue!

Tapi sebenernya wajar sih gue nangis. Lagi banyak masalah, underpressure banget! Ahhhh pengen liburan deh rasanya! ;(

ah tapi sudahlah! yang penting sekarang udah ngerti fisikanya! dijelasin sama temen2 yang pinter: Ochan, Dessy, Mira, makasih banyaaaaaaakkk! xD

Errr, so now what? Kalo nangis lagi ga lucu kan ya?

Hmmm... Entertaining myself by searching some cute photos on deviantart may sounds good.

Ah ah ah! I've got one! Look at this comic strip!

from here

LMAO!

Hahahaha! Konyol banget sih! Itu matanya Harry sampe ijo banget gitu! LOL!

Well, udahan dulu ah! See ya folks! Enjoy your weekend yaa! :D

Coin Laundry, and Polaroid Time!

2009-07-25T22:31:00.000-07:00

This is such a funny song! lols.

and the setting of the clip is darn cute! *tee-hee*

Well, anyway, how's life folks? :D

Mine is good, thanks . hehe :)

....

but am recently craving for this thing!!! aaahhh....

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See how beauty is the result!

Ahhhh.... Momma.... buy me one! x((

Please please pleaseeee!

P.S. I got an award from Cilla, thanks dear... here's the award:

all polaroid pics taken from here

xoxo,

Did ya know?

2009-07-23T06:08:00.000-07:00

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There was a study done where a control group of 100 people were divided into two.

50 people watched very funny, tears-of laughter type movie.
50 watched a very sad and tears of compassion type movie.
At the end of the sessions researchers collected the "happy tears" and the "sad tears" with eye droppers.

They found that "happy tears" are made up of brine, salt water and not a great deal else.
However the "sad tears" were found to contain the very same chemicals and enzymes that are found in tumors, ulcers and other such lumps and bumps and sicknesses through out the body.

This test concluded that the body, when crying in sadness etc is literally flushing out all of the toxic-chemicals that accumulate and are a part of the sadness/heartache experience.

Therefore if one holds back those tears, those toxic-waters will find somewhere else to deposit themselves and prolonged lack-of-crying-release will guarantee that the body will accumulate a huge amount of internal pollution and toxicity that should have been released through the tears.
Is it any wonder that the eyes sting so much when we hold back our tears?

No wonder men die earlier than women.

Cry your heart out when you are sad, lonely, alone, depressed,and any other not-so-good emotion. It's good for your health, apparently.

(Reposted from here,

thanks for the info, dear nunu.. :) )

xoxo,

Emma Watson The Gorgeous! x)

2009-07-18T16:58:00.000-07:00

A little bit late here, but no problem I think.

I've been overwhelmed by those competitions to write even a review for Emma, but no worry folks, now I'd like to write my another fashion posts about Emma. hihihi. In-joy! :D

Back in April I revealed that Emma Watson is to be the new face of Burberry, well now the images have finally been revealed and she looks amazing! The campaign was shot by Mario Testino around Westminster and show true British weather (grey and cold) whilst Emma poses with several male models. Creative director Christopher Bailey told WWD, “I wanted the images to represent both the rich history and the modernity of the Burberry brand, while at the same time reflecting a quiet beauty, timelessness and strength that is particularly significant today.” Do you think these photos achieve his aims?

(those sentences above taken from fabsugar)

Well I think he does. lol. :D

Check out the gorgeous here. :)

Yep. Perfecto.

But not that it all. *tee-hee*

I believe you could remember the phase when she was just shy of ten years old when she took on the role of Hermione Granger, the bookish, bushy-haired sidekick to the titular hero of Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone. So feverishly anticipated was that first film—and so beloved were its four sequels (the fifth, Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince, hits theaters this month)—that Emma Watson, now nineteen, has been world-famous for more than half her life.

Fashion, in fact, has long been of particular interest to Emma. She's worn enough big-night Chanel to become friendly with Karl Lagerfeld, the line's iconic designer—"It's kind of my lucky brand," she explains, "a fail-safe"—and lately she has been branching out, experimenting with Balenciaga, Burberry (for whom she's a fall face), Miu Miu, Alice Temperley, and a little-known Englishman named William Tempest, whose designs she first spotted at an up-and-comers event called Fashion Fringe. When she's not premiere-hopping, she says, "I live, really, in jeans from Topshop, blazers from Ralph Lauren or Reiss, and ballet flats."

On her personal style:
"I'm young, so I'm still experimenting. But I think my style is quite British and very much about individuality."

And as she explains wisely,

"There's nothing interesting about looking perfect—you lose the point. You want what you're wearing to say something about you, about who you are."

oh my gosh! She's absolutely now a role model of mine! x)

(some sentences taken from teenvogue official website)

Well, here enjoy some shoots of her for Teen Vogue cover. Gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous !!! YAYYY!! xD

While in the same time, she also looks veeeeeeery tough on Harry Potter 6th,

ooohhh.... pity Hermione. Ron betrays her by dating that silly Lavender. cup cup... :(

hahahaha. :D

Ahhh... so that's it all. What do you think, folks?

Is she become one of your role model too? hihi... ;D

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ah ya! one more! one more! I recently am craving for this thing:

Aaaarrgh, only costs US$12, mauuuuuu.... x((((

xoxo,

Another Awards :)

2009-07-17T02:53:00.000-07:00

Thanks to Kithzi... :)

Pass 'em to : *bingung*, semua yg mau deh.. silahkan diambil aja.

much love,

Cool Stuffs! Yay!

2009-07-15T00:36:00.000-07:00

Uh-oh! these cool stuffs...

1. Pop Pillows

it looks like real, aite? i mean, wow! such great designs! :D thumbs up for ya, Matt Jones. ;)

2. Dear Diary 1.0 by Marlies Romberg

Dear Diary 1.0 is a computer embedded in a traditional wooden desk with a wooden keyboard laser cut and comes with a wooden monitor, wooden mouse to match. By designer Marlies Romberg. It also has Topsecret USB Stick, which made of porcelain and silicone.

ohh anyway, the keyboard is hot, rite? x)

3. Chair Construction by Wolk Design

The human hands as a chair foot holding up your chair, cool!!

4. The Faceless LED Watch

no other word but COOL! xD

Well, you could find out more in likecool.com! have fun! ;)

Long Post. hehe :D

2009-07-11T21:42:00.000-07:00

I've been such a procrastinator these days.

A lot of things happened to me lately, and for sure, those things will be such very interesting topics to be shared with y’all guys my beloved readers here. Yeah, sure. But what happened next? Intention is only a word. I delayed it all. Easily said something like, “Ah, tomorrow will be a great mo to write!”, or… “I’m so weary today, lets just do that tomorrow.”

Yep, such the things.

And as you’ve guessed—of course, the final things that came up to my mind wass… “Oh, well, that news is too late. I gotta find something fresher!”

And… there goes, I got nothing to write.

So, maybe for this time, I'd just like to share some random things that happened to me lately, just in case you wanna know—hehe, and ... I will write ‘em all in a list—as usual, 15 points would be great I think. :)

1. I’ve just finished read the last series of Twilight Saga, Breaking Dawn. And I simply fell in love with it. Deeply.

2. I had two hamsters. I had. Well, they have died a week ago. I’m totally distress, you know? Euh…. Here are their photos I took some days before they gone. (It always makes me cry seeing them on those shoots! sigh...)

this's while they took a nap. ;(

no no, they're not dead, they're sleeping. hihi, funny... x)

Rocky ate his dinner. :)

This is Pocky. He's best on climbing the hedge! hihi.

lagi rebutan pengen main spinning wheel nih... uuuuhhh lucu bangeett! x))

oh Gosh! How I miss you dear, Pocky, Rocky... Mama will always love ya two! Rest in Peace, okay? ;(

3. I dyed my hair red. Not too obvious actually, but it looks well under the sun light. Some of my friends envy me a lot because of this! Hahahaha… ;D

4. My bestbestfella, who ever betrayed me only because his girlfriend, ask an apology from me two weeks ago. You know, karma works! His girlfriend also betrayed him. Hahahaha. Gotcha! Well, it feels very nice to get you back here, dear… I missed you so much. :)

5. I went to the Beach with my fellas-on-JHS—such like a reunion gitu. And it’s SUPER DUPER GREAT! xD

here are the shoots..

Me with jeans and white T-shirt.

Me and Alfa, hihi she's so chinese aite? ;P

yaaaayy play with sand! xD --me on Singapore blue shirt

Banana Boat rocks! hahahaha

burry Alfa in the sand! LOL. we're so cruel! xP

we're going to eat ikan kue , and it tastes very good you know that!? haha

anyway, could you see that my hair looks a little bit red there? :)

6. Me and my ex now have no contact at all. Only some greetings in corridor, and that’s all. But also, it feels so much better for me. :)

7. I have a new crush. And… Oh! No caption for this one, I think!

8. I have a talk with my best fella, Rainy, about her love life, two days ago in her house. yeah, boyfriend, ex, and yada yada yada. haha. And she’s also a new blogger looohh… check out her blog on : http://freakyout.blogspot.com/ ! ;) (I’m her personal tutor on this blogging thingy, fyi) *tee-hee*

9. Tomorrow is the first day school on the new semester. Aaaahhh how I miss the stuffs! xD

10. Just got news that I’ve been chosen to follow “Cerdas-Cermat” competition in Tangerang. Oh… It dizzies me out a bit!

11. I miss Michael Jackson. I really, really, really wish I ever watched his concert even for once! I hate my daddy for never invited me to go!

12. I miss my best fella ever, Mada. Sis, sorry we couldn’t met each other this holiday yaaa.. you and me have been so busy with each other stuffs, and…. Euh, I’m so sorry! x(

13. I feel so into twitter! Ahaha. It kinda funny how I used to think it’s useless it at first. :P

14. I’ve watched Transformers 2 last week, and, it’s poor. You know, the robots act better than the actors! LOL.

15. It’s 12 am, I can feel my tummy grumbling, and also, I haven’t take a bath yet. Ahahahaha. So...

TOODLES, PEEPS! :D

Thaaaaaaanks and Sooooorrrryyyy

2009-07-10T03:39:00.000-07:00

First off, thanks banget semuaaaaaaa yang udah follow blog ini. ya ampun, bener2 ga nyangka banget bakalan sampe ada yang follow blog tolol ini, apalagi sampe ngelebihan angka 100 gitu! ooooohh unbelievable banget! thanks y'all! i love youuuu more than anything! x)

Second of all, mata gue bintitan sodara-sodara! YAOLOOOOOHHH..... sungguh nggak elit deh tuh penyakit! BINTITAN?!!!! errrghhhh..... mata gue jadi bengkak eksotis gini bok! >.<

dan karena itulah, ga enak banget nih buka mata lama2, pengennya mereeeeeeem mulu. mati, mati dah lo Put!

jadi kayaknya ga bisa posting dulu dalam beberapa saat ini (at least untuk seminggu ke depan lah--sampe sembuh aja!), and so ga bisa blogwalking juga. maaf ya maaaaaaaaafffff.... :((

sekarang mau tidur lagi nih. penuh perjuangan bok ngetik ginian doang. hiks hiks hiks...

CHAO folks!

P.S. dua hari lagi sekolah yaaa.. hihihi, asiknyaaa ngeliatin adek2 kelas disiksa sama kaka2 mabis! muahaauahauhauahauahha *ketawa setan*

Teaser

2009-07-08T19:53:00.000-07:00

Aaahh... just got home from Bogor two days ago. And directly went to the Beach with my fellas on the following day.

So... no other word but totally exhausted!!! x(

Euh... Well, I promise I will write some more when I get well later—I feel so weary right now. --"

only some teasers for now, okay? sorryyyyy... how you enjoy it then! :D

(ooohh this silly hair!) x(

P.S. Sorry folks, I can't do any blogwalking for now. But will do later, really! :)

wuf y'all guys,

Looklet

2009-07-02T06:16:00.000-07:00

I'm having so much fun with Looklet! Do you play it too? hihi.. it's fun, ladies! try it! :D

anwyays, which one is your favorite outfit? ;)

My Milk Toof

2009-06-27T06:06:00.000-07:00

"I am fast and furious."

"Okay, Let's drizzle just a bit on this spiky fella...easy..."

This is Ickle's toilet! ahahahaha... too cute, isnt that? x)

"I don't think these glasses work..."

Oh dear, ickle has two new baby teeth growing in! When your first teeth come in, it's always very itchy and sore. To soothe the pain, ickle has been nibbling on things all over the house.

(how cute! toof has teef! lol! xD)

Okay guys, try to stay clean from now on.

"Don't wanna." (Lardee said)

***

Well, okay, there's no other word but SUPERCUUUUUTTEEEEEE!!! Oh My Goodness! Thousand thumbs up for the owner of this blog: Inhae. Goddamn! you are just darn COOL, sweetie!

ah ya, maybe you are so confuse right now, asking in your mind,

"aaaahh what are those cute little things?"

and the answer is...

"They are teeth."

hihihi. yep! sounds funny right! how could teeth walk, ride the bicycle, or even take a bath? well, the only answer is: "Use your imagination, fella! Come on!" ahahahaha :D

Yeeeeepp, My Milk Toof, is a blog that tells us about the adventure of two teef, named Ickle and Lardee. Aaaaahhh... enough is enough then! I won't say anything more about it, just check it by yourself on ... here. hihi. ;D

And you may thank me after that! You won't sorry, folks! :D

love 'em crazy,

Eternal Love, Is It For Real?

2009-06-25T03:03:00.000-07:00

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It kinda funny how love works so fast.

Such like love at first sight. Has it come to you, peeps?

Hmm, well, for me myself, yes it has. No no no, I mean, it doesn’t work. I thought it's a love at first, but at the end, I realized, it was not. I only admired him, but I didn’t love him at all. So, what they called love at first sight, is totally wrong for me. It is not love, it is passion.

But at this moment, I’m not gonna tell you about that, I’m gonna tell you about how love could lasting forever—or at least, for very long time. Unremitting. But hey fellas, one you should know is, it rarely happens. Only one in a thousand....

But for sure, guys, a gentleman in my life, have that kind of love.

And ridiculously, that eternal love is meant for me.

For the sake of tartar sauce! What is so special about Putri Erdisa Januarti? Whose name is not even recognized by the president, whose name is not even recognized by the headmaster in her school! What is so special about me?

And, oh my gosh, please do forgive my mistake… I ignored his love.

I don’t know what happened to me, but I don’t have any feeling with him! I can't, even if I tried to. It seems like we’re made to be friends, not to be a lovemate or whatever. It is weird how a person, who loves me sincerely, can’t get my own love in return! It seems like… love is unfair. Very unfair.

Ah, I don’t know. I feel so guilty right now. It hurts, fellas, it really hurts to hurt a close friend; he is a real chum of mine! Okay you might ask me like this,

“So why, Putri, if you feel guilty on him, why don’t you just accept him as your boyfriend? You should be having a special feeling with him even if it’s so tiny!”

Well, the answer for the question is: I don’t have any special feeling on him. Not even a tiny one. So, if I did accept him, but in fact I have no feeling on him, it would be so much more unfair for him, right? Settle down with a person who just pretending to love the mate, is absolutely a misery!

Oh sucks! I hate being into such situation like this! I mean, do I have any choice? No. The only choice is “no”.

But it really, really hurts to ignore a person who loves me eternally. Endlessly.

(fyi, he has loving me about 2 years!! Cool, uh?)

But then, at the end, I don’t know what I should do now. Maybe it’s proper if I just let him still for awhile. I don’t know. I totally am a newbie for these stuffs.

So, is there any suggestion, chums? I really need it.

This post is dedicated to the gentleman who has give me that eternal love, R,

you know ka? i will never forget you,

Kaos Manohara

2009-06-24T22:44:00.000-07:00

euh.. well, tadinya gue mau posting review film-film yang baru gue tonton, tapi terus gue buka blognya Ka Tepsoy (salah satu blog favorit gue lohhh, hehe), dan nemu foto ini di salah satu posting terbarunya.

dan, yah... buyar sudah semua yang pengen gue post tadi. *speechless*

Help Wanted (?)

2009-06-23T19:37:00.000-07:00

Ada yang punya saran buat ngakalin koleksi award gue biar ga ngeganggu ditaro di sidebar?

ada 22 award bok! (hehe, banggaaaa.. ;P) bingung mau ditaro dimana.. habis kalo ditaro di sidebar gitu jelek keliatannya!

hmm... untuk yg ada ide, terimakasih... :D

Award, and Picture Updates :D

2009-06-21T17:15:00.000-07:00

Thanks again to letmethink's. ;)

i pass this one to a cat-lover, friend of mine, jeng jeng jeng... Inaz Zahra.

(heh, karna udah gue kasih award, ntar pulang dari malay titip oleh2 yang banyak yahhh!! aahahaha)

and this one, thanks to Icha.. :D

sebenernya ni award dikasih udah lama banget ya Cha, maaf banget log baru bisa aku post sekarang. :P hehe.

nah, sekaraaaang... waktunya buat share foto2! hihi. enjoy, peeps! ;D

(hihi, ini waktu aku speech. itu yg pake baju coklat native speaker dari US, fyi. oh ya, sebenernya itu ada podium lho, tapi aku males di belakang podium, jadi keluar deh. (mana mic-nya ga wireless lagi, sial!) and that's why, nilai confidence-ku paling gede diantara semuanya. :))

(ini waktu anak2 lagi grandfinal debat. ga ngerti apa yang diomongin, jadi bobo aja deh. lagian last night-nya cuma bobo 4 jam, nonton The Saw. hehe :P)

(itu waktu di Vegas HotDog. hehe, see how not fashionable i am! T-shirt, Jacket, Sneakers. lol.)

(aku sama ms.Dayu, guru pendampingku yang masih muda, menyalurkan jiwa narsis sebelum aku tampil! fyi, itu waktu kita narsis, udah sampe urutan ke-8, sedangkan aku sendiri urutan ke-9. and fyi again, i didnt realize it at all! so, pas ke depan tuh bener2 planga-plongo dan tanpa persiapan. ahahaha. tapi kata ms.Dayu sih justru gapapa, biar rileks. dan bener loh miss, aku ngerasanya kayak bukan lagi lomba! ga deg2an sama sekali! ehehehe :D . ah ya, sebenernya masih banyak foto yang lainnya. tapi daripada post ini kepanjangan, jadi duaaja deh yaa.. hehehe) --too long caption bok kayaknya. :P

(i looove this photo so much! hihi, ;))

well, that's it all. thanks for read, fellas. :DDDDDD

toodles,

Flooded with awards.. hihi ;D

2009-06-21T03:03:00.000-07:00

Thaaaaanksss to raisa , jessi and tika . :)

and also, to letmethinks :).

actually there are some more from Cilla, but i don't have any idea why do they couldn't appear in my PC? huhu... i'll post it later ya dear.. :(

Thanks, all! you're too kind! x)

Doo Be Doo, and others

2009-06-20T19:40:00.000-07:00

oh guys, please don't be too shocked. Gita Gutawa has buy the license to copy their song. :)

but well, the first version is much better than the copy, right? are you with me? haha. :D

anyways, I've watched night at the museum 2, and angels and demons, on blitz megaplex last days, and... they're highly recommended! you should watch it too! trust me!

Sorry, I can't blogwalk for now, at least for today. my eyes getting worse. sigh... :(

Updates!!!! :D

2009-06-20T03:11:00.000-07:00

WOW! It’s been a full week without any updates! So many things to be told, but hell yeah it will be too long if I wrote them all in paragraphs. I don't wanna make you bored. haha. Soooo, the only solution is … I’ll make a list for y’all! Enjoy, peeps! ;D

1. I won the speech contest! I won it I won it I won it!! Yeaaaahh…. Ahahahaha. :D well, not the 1st place actually… I got the 2nd place. But it’s very awesome! I don’t even hope for it! Lol.

2. I arrived on Bandung on the last Sunday, and went back home last night. Or it means, I spent 6 days there! Woaaa… it’s just terrific! Felt like Bandung already become my hometown! hihi :D

3. The weather in there is sooooo cold. Almost everyday was cloudy. And even, I still hiding underneath my blanket on 10 am! 10 am!!! Wow! That’s cool, rite? Ahahah.. pardon my laziness, fellas. :P

4. I didn’t shop a lot. No time, no too much money. I was definitely hunting for sales on malls! Ahahaha. I got one Nevada bag, two unbranded t-shirts, some books, and… oh, well, that’s all! Sigh… I wanna shop more... ;(

5. I got 3rd rank from the final result of this semester. Aw! I’m happy! But not really, actually. I lose from a man who always did cheating on the exams, oh my gooood, it’s terribly annoying! I’ve studied so hard on a full week, exhausted my mind and body, wasted my time on remembering some matters that I don’t really like, and … what do I get then? Lose from the one who always cheated! Arrrrgh! That absolutely sucks!

6. I don’t know why, but my right eye can’t see things clearly. It’s very blur, and totally bothers my sight! Euhh… I should check it right away.

7. I haven’t blogwalk among this week. So, I beg your sorry, fellas, for those unreplied request on my chatbox. I’ll do blogwalking as soon as possible, okay? :)

8. Hmm… I’m so sleepy right now, so…

CHAO!

P.S. Picture updates soon, okay? So just keep an eye on this blog! Ahahaha :D

too dizzy to even think of a title

2009-06-13T17:53:00.000-07:00

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I really wish I could play ballet. at least, stand on my own toes. sigh.. why does my mom never take me to a ballet course?!

ah, mommy... I miss you terribly. cepet pulang dong mam... :(

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ah ya, and also this one! I am craving for this soooo bad! arghh... how I really wish I could make ones like that too! you know, I'm a left-brainy person, and I'm not that creative to even know how it could be made! GOSH! I really am a loser, arent I?

Anyways, i'm gonna depart to Bandung at 1.00 pm today. i'll be there till Friday, and well... i really wish you guys are willing to pray for me. *tee-hee*

ah ya, ada yang rumahnya di bandung? kopdar yuuukkk... ;D

Something's wrong with my facebook account. i cant post my recent status (actually it already happened from weeks ago, well, i thought it's only a problem with my internet connection or what, but--arrgh! it never be fixed!).

so, anybody knows how to handle it? how to fix it? I really need to facebooking and sharing my recent thoughts... you know, twitter's not too fun for me. I keep signing in only because i want to see those idol's tweets. ahaha. help me ya guys, please. :(

Miss Fleshy,